My boyfriend's ex{MaRina}•completed•

7(M)

Maya  was getting ready for her date with Jack. She dressed not too fancy but neither too casually. All the while she had a nagging feeling in the pit of her stomach that this wasn't right, that it wasn't what she really wanted. She ignored the little voice in her head as she focused on putting on some makeup. She didn't like too much makeup, she preferred a more natural look, and it seems it worked for her just fine. Finally she was ready to go. She glanced at the clock, It was almost 8 p.m. Jack would pick her up soon.

She got out of their dorm thankful that she didn’t run into Carina. She tightened the coat around her since it was a really cold night outside. Jack arrived soon, getting out of his Porche to greet her. They got in quickly and drove off to the restaurant. Jack made some last minute reservations for them, at some semi-fancy place. Maya was becoming agitated with herself, because she couldn't help but think about Carina. It seemed that the brunette was the only thing on her mind nowadays.

Jack was trying to keep the conversation light and to engage her, but all her responses were half-hearted and forced. She pushed her food around her plate distantly, stuck in her weird mindset. If Jack noticed anything he didn't say it, but he kept being all sweet and patient with her. She lost her appetite completely as guilt stabbed her in the gut.

 

I am so horrible to him, I should at least try. He deserves that much Maya convinced herself as she forced a smile. I never had to force smiles before, it came to me naturally as breathing and now…

"Let's get out of here, Jack" she told him, causing him to perk up at her sudden mood change. I have to at least try Maya thought as she stood from the table and grabbed Jack's hand. He followed her, his face lightening up with a smile. Maya kissed him intensely, whispering in his ear seductively "Is your roommate home?"

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Dammit... How didn't I realize this before? Maya lay in her bed softly sobbing in her pillow. Her fingers were clutching the pillow tightly as her tears soaked it. She didn't stop crying since Jack dropped her off. The realization hit her like a ton of bricks and at the worst possible moment.

"I love you, Maya" Jack whispered to her passionately as he was about to reach his peak. She just stared at his facial contours in the darkness of his room, not able to utter a sound. She thought sleeping with him would make it all better, would get her out of her head, but it wasn't working. That uneasy feeling in the pit of her stomach only intensified, beads of cold sweat breaking out on her body, and her heart racing from the panic.

Maya wasn’t able to reply, as tears pricked in the corner of her eyes. I do, I care about him and I do love him just not in that way, not like I love her  Realization hit her hard, hit her forcefully, kicking the breath out of her chest. She denied it to this moment, but not anymore.

All the while Jack was touching her she thought how wrong it was. How his hands are not as delicate as hers, his lips not as soft and delicious, his touches not making her body feel as if lit on fire. She was having sex with him but she was longing, she was aching for her lips, her touches, her warm feminine body...for Carina.

Maya excused herself soon after, barely managing her tears. Jack repeatedly asked her if she was alright, but what could she tell him? That she fell in love with someone else, and not just someone, Carina Deluca for that matter, his ex, the girl who hated her, who wanted her for God knows what reason, that she betrayed him for probably an unrequited love, love that will break only her heart in the process. But she couldn't tell him that, how could she? So in the end she did the only thing she could, she lied.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I am just not feeling well. Sorry for ruining our night."

"It's fine. Get better babe." Jack pecked her gently, and walked her to the door of her building.