ETHEREAL (Jikook)

i hate myself for it

Jungkook stares out the window. Lying back with an expressionless face.

Fully sure of his thoughts, of his feelings, but unsure of what he's going to do about them.

Honestly, he feels, angry.

Angry because he's always been so patient, angry because he's always known what to do in every situation.

But those rare times when he for once feels clueless, feels stuck...it brings this strong insecurity that's intolerable.

That makes him feel pathetic.

He rubs his eyes with both fists, and looks away from the window.

"Fuck," He mumbles.

When was the last time I felt like this?

Felt this...low.

Felt this stupid.

Just as he stands, he hears a knock on his door, and he groans.

As if seeing people would help.

He walks over and looks out the window to see who it is, and just as he sees the person who makes him feel euphoric yet pathetic, too, standing in front of the door he curses under his breath.

But he opens it anyways, and slowly.

"Jungkook!"

"Hi, Jimin."

"Woah, what's wrong?" The smaller asks as he stops himself from hugging the other.

Jungkook shrugs, "I mean, I'm just tired, thinking about a lot at the moment."

Jimin makes a thinking expression, not buying it at all, "You're my best friend...I know you so well. Be honest."

Jungkook feels a sharp pain in his chest as he stares at Jimin's soft face in silence.

Then he scoffs, moving away from the door and he walks over to the kitchen.

Jimin gulps before closing the door and following. "Should I have...texted you before coming over?"

Jungkook opens the cabinets and grabs an empty glass, "Want anything to drink?"

"No, thank you. Now will you answer my question?"

Jungkook silently turns the sink on, and fills the cup.

He then brings it to his lips and chugs it in only a few seconds.

Jimin crosses his arms.

He knows Jungkook can be stubborn at times. Not always the happiest person

But right now, Jungkook's state....Jimin hasn't ever seen this before.

In fact, he doesn't think any human has ever seen Jungkook look so...low? Helpless? Angry...Upset?

Jungkook's hair is messy and his movements are sloppy and lazy like.

"Jungkook," Jimin says gently as he approaches the counter, and looks up at the taller, "You know you can confide in me, right?"

Jungkook closes his eyes and leans both hands against the sink. And he thinks, how the hell can I confide in you, ABOUT you?

He quickly pours himself more water, looking down the entire time, "How was your date last night? With...what's his name?"

"Jinyoung?"

Jungkook chuckles as he brings the cup to his mouth, "Yup. That's it."

"It was...fine..."

"Not good? Not, great?"