Locked in chains

Chapter 11

The ride back to the villa was quieter than usual, and neither of us dared to speak. I was still processing what happened and I think he was too. On the way home, he looked at the road without even glancing at me, like he was forcing himself not to. We know that what just occurred can't happen again. There's too much of a risk, being with one of your gang members, especially your future boss is risky, and Lucas would kill him if he knew he kissed me, so imagine if more were to go down. Thinking about his lips, got me all hot again. It feels like I just woke up from a dream and now reality is hitting me in the face. 

We just arrived at the villa and the guys were waiting for us in the living room. Cole was standing in front of them while I went to sit on the couch next to Lucas. "How did it go?" Lucas asks me.

"Um..." I start. It's such a simple question, but I don't know what to answer. I have a hard time figuring out if the evening has gone well or not. I'm so confused. The tantrum that Cole has done in the car about how I'm good at nothing, and after the kiss between us. Urgh. How could I know?

"It was okay, Steven saw us together and we went to talk," Cole says. He doesn't talk about David, which is weird. Steven is the last person I would've talked about, maybe he'll mention it later.

"Perfect! So, what did he think?" Enzo asks.

Am I the only one who doesn't know who Steven is? And why did he need to talk to Cole? It's clear that they both knew each other, but who is he? 

"Who is Steven?" I ask between two sentences. Cole tenses up at his name and doesn't even dare look at me. What's his problem now?

"He's Marcus' new second in command" Kyle announces.

"Why didn't anyone tell me?"

"It's recent" Cole finally says.

"How recent?" I say still not believing they hid this detail from me. Which is a big deal by the way! Our last second in command was my father, we haven't replaced him until now.

"Since the last meeting," Lucas says.

"I'm just as much a part of the Reds as you guys are, so next time it would be nice to let me know, don't you think?" I say as I'm raising my voice.

"It's complicated Leila..." Lucas continues.

"No! It's not complicated, you just make it that way!"

"Leila, stop," Cole says firmly. 

I wanted to wait until tomorrow to talk about all of this, but they're not telling me anything and I'm fed up. "You, don't start," I say to Cole. I turn to the others, pointing at them, "You don't tell me anything and keep sidelining me with your childish secrets. What's so serious that I can't know, huh? Am I that weak?" I start moving back and forth like a madwoman and stop right in front of Cole. "And why did David imply that I would soon be his? WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?" I'm out of breath, confused about everything, and nothing at the same time. I just want to know the truth, that's all. I glance at the others, still sitting on the couch. Their facial expressions have changed, they are no longer worried. Fear is all over their face, from head to toe. They continue to stare at me, not saying anything at all.

"Leila. it's com..." Lucas starts.

"I get it, it's complicated. You know what? Screw you all." I turn to Cole to face him until I meet his eyes. "And you too" I spit out. I walk towards my room, not giving them any importance. As I close my door, I make sure to slam it as loudly as possible so they can hear me. That's what I do with your stupid secrets. You bunch of idiots.

Two days later,

Marcus called the guys yesterday to tell them about a mission, and I decided to stay home and let them handle it alone. It's only a delivery with the Goldens, so Marcus agreed to my request and the guys didn't insist that I come either. It's not that I wouldn't have liked it if they had, but I'm a little disappointed that they didn't say anything. For the past two days, I haven't spoken to them. If I'm in the kitchen, they stay in the living room and wait for me to leave the room. Pathetic. I only ask for the truth, isn't that simple? I wonder when the secrets started. I didn't see anything, I'm such a fool.