Scars

Part three

I immediately turned around and looked directly into his eyes for the first time that night. I instantly regretted that. His strong gaze held mine. His gaze always had the same effect on me. Even now after all the pain that he has brought to me, he still has the power to captivate me with just his gaze. I knew that he could sense the desperation in my eyes. I really couldn't allow myself to fall again. Fall again for his tricks.

"- And what do you want to say to her? And most important, since when do you have friends?" I tried to listen to my mind and not listen to my heart. In the past three months I've been trying to convince myself that it will be better, that it takes time to heal after such a tormented relationship and when I will meet him again I will be able to rebuild my confidence and look at him without any regrets.

Without any regrets that I broke up with him, without any regrets that it might have been my fault that our relationship didn't worked out.

He laughed in an almost devilishly sarcastic way and said:

"-I always thought that you were my friend. I actually consider you one of my best friends. But yeah, maybe the feeling isn't mutual!"

At this point my anger starts to boil up inside of me.

"-Really Yoongi? Really? How dare you play the victim in all this? You're so used to making me the villain in all of this! Do I need to remind you of the things you put me through? I was there for you through all of these damn years. Helping you when you were down.

Trying to heal every emotional scar that you had, trying so hard to fix every piece of your broken heart, just in hope that you might love me someday. You were draining all my energy and giving nothing in return. " At this point my whispering turned into almost screaming. I didn't even realize that Yoongi was now much closer to me than before.