Lost In Love

CHAPTER 5

"Your talent is wasted when you don't know what it is worth."

Her words linger to my ear, I cant stop thinking about it. It feels like she's saying my talent need to be shown in the world because that's the worth of it.

I close my eyes again as I sing the next part.

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
i know i can make it, today my life begins
life's to short to have regrets
so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

I can see her eyes, I need to see her tomorrow to say thank you for that powerful word and I smile on the thought of it, the thought of seeing her again.

I finished the song with so much happiness in my heart, it feels so good to perform in a lot of people showing the talent that I have.

Birthday ni Jason kaya nag ka yayaan mag inuman sa bar, and the band that performing is my friend so they ask if I can sing a song to them and the birthday boy insisted it.

Bababa na sana ako ng stage when someone caught my attention, in this crowded room my eyes only see her.

She looks stunning and elegant in her black silk dress, she's looking at me intently, her eyes looks tired and red, did she cry?

We look at each other for a minute,
before she decided to turn around and walk away. I dont what happened to me dahil dinadala ako ng mga paa ko sakanya.

"Where are you going?" Tania asked and grab my arm, she look tipsy na din.

"May kukunin lang sandali" inalis ko ang kamay nya at nagpatuloy sa paghahanap.

My eyes trying to find her, andito na ako sa parking lot but still I can't find her.

Saan ba yun nag punta?

I saw her crying, di ako pwede magkamali.

I stop running when I saw her and 'm right she's crying. Nakaupo ito sa likod ng kotse and she's sobbing. Mahina lang ang pag iyak neto pero dama mo ang sakit na nararamdan nya.

I stand In front of her, naka upo padin to at ang ulo nya ay nakapatong sa tuhod nya. I hand her my white handkerchief, she slowly raise her head. Mukhang naka inom ito,namumula na ang mga mata nito.

Surprise is evident in her eyes when she saw me. Tumayo ito at nagpunas ng luha not minding the handkerchief.

"Maam, you okay?" I asked in a concerned voice.

She's not answering me at nagpatuloy lang ito sa paglalakad, maririnig parin ang mahihina nyang hikbi.

"Maam, hatid nalang po kita, you look so drunk"

"J-just leave Griffin."

"Maam, you can talk to me if you want, I'll listen."

Natigilan ito dahil sa katagang binitawan ko, I'm willing to listen, I'll giver her my time, kahit ilang oras pa ay ibibigay ko maging okay lang sya.

"I don't need anyone, I don't need you." she said that blankly and walk away.

Di ko mapigilan na masaktan sa sinabi nya, but I didn't listen and continue to follow her. it's past ten na kaya delikado kung papabayaan ko ito.

I understand why she doesn't want to talk to me, we're not close enough for her to tell me her story.

She continue to walks with no destination. I silently following her, we're now in street where only moon is our light.

Wala ng tao kaya malaya ito umiyak, maliit na daanan lang ang nadadaanan namin.

I put my hands on the pocket of my jacket, I'm watching her back shrugging because she's still crying, who did that to her, she don't deserve it.

She still elegant when walking. Naka ilang metro na kami sa paglalakad pero ni konting pagod ay hindi ko mararamdan, I don't want to take my eyes off her, I might lose her if I did.

Lumakas ang pag hugolgol nya at napaupo,agaran akong lumapit but I remained silent. Hinubad ko ang jacket at sinuot sakanya. Pinantayan ko ang pag upo nya as I pat and caressing her hair, I want her to know that I'm here, I won't leaver her.

I'm surprised when she hug me, it's really tight.

"I-Im s.ssorry" she said sniffing her nose.

I hugged her tightly, I dont know what to do, she dont deserve this, this gold professor of mine is showing her weakness side and crying in front of me.

Mas lalo itong naiyak dahil sa ginawa ko, she keeps saying sorry. I faced her and hold her cheeks, oh man how can this human being still able to stay pretty.

"I'm here." I smile and kissed her nose.

Her eyes closed when I kissed her nose, she hugged me again. Nang wala na akong maramdaman ay binuhat kona to dahil alam kong tulog na sya.

I booked a taxi earlier habang sinusundan ko ito kanina. Hinalungkat ko ang bag nya to check her id to see where her address and luckily I found one.

Nang makarating kami agad sa condo nya ay buti ay nag sleep talk ito at sinabi ang room number. I opened the door at pumasok agad, buti hindi kabigatan si maam kundi baka tinapon kona ito kanina pa, chour.

Dahan dahan ko itong ibinaba sa higaan nya, I stopped when she moan.... did she moan in front of me?  myghad my Niylah Griffin your so green minded tulog yung tao.

I'm a nursing student kaya kahit papaano ay alam ko ang gagawin, I erased her make up first and I can't stop complimenting her—she's really pretty. Hindi kona ito binihisan baka ano pa ang isipin pag gising nya pero I washed her head and hand using washcloth.

Dahan dahan kong ibinaba ang washcloths sa leeg nya and she flick na akala moy napaso.

After cleaning her ay inayos kona ang higaan nya, kinumutan at pinaandar ang aircon.

I sat next to her, hindi ko mapigilang ma curious kung anong nangyari sakanya. Why she keep saying sorry.?

She looks so innocent right now, I tucked her baby hair beside her ear. Nagmulat ito ng mata and look at me for a seconds bago ito natulog na ng tuluyan.

I kissed her nose again.

it's okay to cry if you don't know how to handle things right now whatever happens, everything will be alright. it may not be today, but trust me one day you will wake up with no heavy heart. I want you to know that I'm here, always.