The great what if is what if basically.
What if I told you up front that I loved you?
Would that be too much to handle?
I feel like a fool
Because you told me I was special and now I don't feel it
Was this all nothing to you?
Do you still miss me?
I needed you every night
Especially yesterday evening
The chaos of it all
The freezing cold rain
The chills throughout my body
The throwing up
The butterflies in the pit of my stomach
Not caring if I get soaked
Not caring what happens to me really
Because there's only one person that I want here with me
Knowing that will never happen
Knowing that I'm nothing to this person
Knowing that I'm too needy
Knowing that I may be too attached
Knowing that we may have a lot in common
Pulling me further
Pushing me away
Unsure what is in the stars
Never heard it from above
I know what's in my heart
You're in mine
I'll be torn a part
It'll kill me when its over
Don't want to think about it
Just open up your heart
If you want to know me
If you want to know who I really am
But I don't think this time I'll tell anyone
This time around, nobody will know the truth except with what I post
Yesterday I had lost it
Was distracted
Was distracted because of you
You were on my mind
I allowed my emotions and feelings to take over
I lost everything as a result
I lost faith
I lost hope
I lost my strength
I lost my will
I lost my patience
I lost my compassion
I lost my soul
For how my heart is blackened and dark
No one will know
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Realm
PoetryThe version of instances made to feel complete but still missing the pieces to put together.
