Scared,
Triggered,
Re-traumatized,
The hell you put me through,
Please,
This time we crossed the line,
No more coming back,
Nothing left to say,
More shots,
Bartender will never know,
Verge of ending things,
Can't even recognize,
To say goodbye,
It's hard,
Heavy emotions,
Black & white,
Still caring,
Still loving,
Called Victim Services,
Too scared,
Broke down,
Crisis responder asked if I was okay?
Told them, "no"
Hung up after wards,
Went for a 6 hour walk,
Don't even know the hell within my mind,
Consumed of darkness,
Blackened heart,
Taking over,
Wanting to start over,
Refusing to go home,
Refusing to re-activate,
Can't do this,
Not worth anyone's time anymore,
My worth,
Relentous,
Disposable,
Garbage,
Unknown,
Inconvenient,
Not worthy at all,
Blaming my father,
Jeff Barrett,
2016,
Pushed everyone away,
Pushed away a community,
No point to live,
Might as well end things,
For good,
No point in living,
No cure for my unhealed trauma,
Tried many times,
Professionals,
Therapists,
Nobody gets it,
Nobody wants to help me,
They give up,
They run,
They abandon,
Parasites,
Leaving me terrified,
Fears taking over,
Rejection issues taking over,
Abandonment consumes me,
Nobody loves me,
But what's love?
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Realm
PoetryThe version of instances made to feel complete but still missing the pieces to put together.
