Those cold hands on yours,
Smeared throughout my body,
Red & sticky,
Virginity gone at 5 years old,
From the time I could remember,
Flashbacks replaying vividly throughout,
Warm breathe on my neck,
On my hairline,
Mixed feelings,
Says I'm beautiful,
Says I'm good in bed,
Says I'm fat and should lose weight,
Was also a bully,
My tormentor,
Tried to speak out,
Nobody listened,
Kept it in,
Triggered,
Re-traumatized,
Last week was chaotic,
Pushed a lot of people of away,
Unhealed trauma says it all,
Those childhood abandonment wounds,
Wanting to be loved & cared for,
Unsure what the word love is,
The way you screwed with my head,
Rather be in a coma,
Making the same mistakes,
Repeating patterns,
Seeing myself in my father,
Strong regrets,
Shame,
Stigmatized,
Feeling invisible,
Unsure how to reach out,
Unsure what to say,
Darkness consumes me,
Staying silent,
Trauma dumping can be a lot,
Feeling unheard,
Feeling voiceless,
Feeling trapped,
Feeling lost,
Feeling unsure,
Identity issues,
Unsure who I really am,
Unsure who actually cares,
Needing reminders,
Validation,
Reassurance,
Lots of love,
Broken unicorn,
Crooked hoof,
Trapped in mystical unicorn land
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