Realm

Glass Shards

Holes on my sweater
Tears in my clothes
Little do people know the broken little girl behind this device
Now she's an adult unsure about a lot of things
Now she's an adult facing life's challenges
Life's tribulations
Financial issues
Addiction issues
Identity issues
Self esteem issues
Bullying
Harassment
A lot of unhealed trauma
Someone who is constantly in crisis
Someone who feels like a burden to everyone
Someone who pushes people away because it's easier than disappointment
Someone who is afraid constantly
Someone who says hurtful things but would never act
Someone who can write for hours and still feel unheard
Someone who is impulsive with no filter
Someone who refuses to reach out for help because of past experiences
Someone who used to message a lot but now allows the messages to come through with little response
Staring at those messages and breaking down every time
Someone who internalizes and takes everything out on herself
Someone who loses everything
Someone who forgets who actually cares
Someone who is on the verge of a mental breakdown.
Someone who is paranoid that everyone is talking about them
Someone who requires a lot of reassurance
Someone who has never been loved or cared for
Someone who doesn't know what love is
Someone with attachment issues
Abuse from someone entangled in their own past
Abuse from someone who won't stop at nothing
Abuse from someone that doxxes carelessly
Abuse from someone that steals their only support
This little girl is at her breaking point
As she cries herself to sleep
Nobody knows the hurt she weeps
At least she's back in her safe place
Just want to be somebody to someone
But I will never be anyone to anyone
When the clouds get heavy
It's hard to unfold
Only one person knows
My true intentions
My true feelings
Those thoughts are lingering
Everyone held on suspense
Asking me questions
Drifting far far away
You don't even check up on me
Words hurt
Yours & mine
Give me reasons to believe
Would you do the same to me?
I'd do it for you
I'd love you even 10 years from now
Again, that confessions chapter will stay in my drafts