The Untold Love

Confusion and Jealousy

After all, that's happened, I wasn't sure what to think. I felt something for him, yet I was also scared of him. I was not too fond of what he did to me. I liked it in the recess of my mind. All I could think about was the way he had pushed me into a corner and done what he wanted. My heart raced when I was reminded of the event. My cheeks flushed lightly, and I felt like I was choking. It was both terrifying and exciting. My mind decided it was a great idea to replay the memory. All day I had a difficult time trying to calm myself. It didn't help that I was in school as well and Damian seemed to be everywhere. I just wanted to avoid him. It was hell.

By the end of the day, I had almost given up on avoiding him. I stood by my car just watching him with a small group of his friends. There was this girl all over him just fake laughing, touching his arm, or even grabbing it. I felt something inside me boiling. I knew it was jealousy. I watched Damian closely. He didn't seem bothered by her. I was wishing she'd stop touching him. Then he did the unthinkable. Damian wrapped his right arm around her skinny waist. My heart started to hurt a little, but I pretended that it didn't bother me. Then he looked my way, and my heart began to beat fast. I froze, he pushed the girl away, I think. He started to make his way toward me quickly. My mind confused me with thoughts that I didn't notice he was already so close.

There was something in his eyes. I just couldn't see it because they changed so quickly. I felt a huge tug at my heart as he caressed my cheek. I closed my eyes bathing in the gentleness of his touch. I felt his thumb and index fingers on my chin as it was lifted. Was he going to kiss me? I wasn't prepared for that at all. I shut my eyes tighter and hoped it would be over quickly. It's not that I didn't like his kisses, it's just that I didn't expect it to be in front of the entire school. But his lips never touched mine. I opened my eyes and looked around confused. He was nowhere near me. In fact, he was still with his group of friends laughing it up. Confused I shook my head to get back into reality. Hoping no one saw the way I was acting I got into my car and drove home.

At home I just walked into the kitchen to see my mom and ask what was for dinner but she wasn't there. I looked over at the fridge where she tends to put notes and noticed a very lengthy one. I smiled and pulled it out from under the magnet. I read it as I walked around the kitchen with a smile on my face. Mom was cute in her old lady ways.

Maxine,

I went left on emergency your Uncle Regis died in a car accident. I'll be gone for a few days, maybe 2 weeks or even longer. Your sisters tagged along so you don't have to worry about them. Please be safe. Remember to lock the doors and don't open them to strangers. Alex is allowed to sleep over, if he wants to. I love you. Xavier knows you're home alone so call him if you can't reach me. Keep the house clean I am trusting you. Be back soon.

Love
Mom, Ro, and Rox

"Hm, Uncle Regis. That's wow. Didn't expect that at all. I hope Aunt Silvia is doing okay." I said out loud as I set the note on the counter.

Things were about to be very quiet here. I didn't like that at all. It gave me too much time for my mind to act up and make me overthink. I pulled out my cellphone and sped dialed Alex. The phone rang three times before going to voice mail. I tried again, but still the same result. I called once more and left a voicemail. I decided a quick shower would help me relax after the mind fuck I had today. I could've sworn he moved over to me. I shook my head again as I left the kitchen. No time to think about that. I made my way upstairs to my room. I grabbed a pair of underwear and pajama bottoms. I plugged my phone into the charger and headed for the bathroom. I turned the tap on and waited for it to heat up. Stripped and stepped inside. The hot water instantly relaxed me. Sighing my relief I thought of everything that's happened since Damian came to school. I was molested, stalked, and confused. This boy was literally turning my world upside down. For what? I don't even know. He's given me mixed signals. He even has a girlfriend, well at least I think so. I was so confused about that. He's molested me, but he'll kiss and touch up on a girl who every one has slept with. The thought of what happened today made my blood boil again. I was definitely jealous of a whore. I quickly showered and got out. I dried and dressed before leaving the bathroom.

I jumped out of my skin when I heard someone clear their throat. Screaming at the top of my lung I threw the nearest object at the person. I heard a familiar laugh as the sock I threw landed on the floor just before the stranger. I opened my eyes and found Alex standing there laughing. I held my chest and took deep breaths. This psychopath nearly killed me.

"Motherfucker!! I should kill you right now!!" I yelled in between my breaths.

Alex kept laughing as he came into my room and dropped a bag on my bed.

"Sorry man. I couldn't help it." He laughed and sat next to his bed.

I took one last breath before throwing my dirty clothes into the hamper. Alex laid out on my bed like he always did when he came over. I stood there with my arms crossed over my bare chest feeling self-conscious. Alex has seen me naked before, but he doesn't know my sexuality. So it makes it a little weird for me. I should tell him tonight. I thought to myself. I kicked at his leg.

"You know the drill. Let's set it up." I said and went to my closet for a shirt.

I couldn't stand it anymore. Being half naked was a no go even in my own house. Alex took it upon himself to inflat the air mattress that he was going to sleep on. I headed downstairs to make the snacks and maybe a microwaved dinner for us both.