The Untold Love

I Forgive you

I awoke in the nurse's office with an IV attached to my arm. I felt numb. Everywhere he touched felt dirty. My heart ached from the memory I had. Damian's sad voice calling to me replayed in my head. I sat up and rubbed my temples. Sighing I could hear the nurse come in. She seemed happy that I was awake. Ms. Grene explained to me that I had a panic attack and a student with 'dazzling' eyes dropped me off.

"Oh..ok thanks..." I smiled a little. 

Ms. Grene took out the IV and told me I could sit there until the bell rang. She had already let my teacher for that class know where I was and what had happened. I noticed I had a sweater on that wasn't mine. I sniffed it and smelled the cologne that Damian uses. I shook my head not believing he'd give me his sweater even after what he did. He still was nice enough to carry me here. I thought of thanking him, but the things he did to me were so unforgivable. I wanted to cry, but I didn't want to do it in front of the nurse. She would've called my mom, and everything would blow up.  The bell rang and I headed to my final class where I knew he'd be.

I walked in and there he was in his assigned seat two rows from mine. I could feel his eyes on me. I did my best to not look at him while I walked to my desk. I failed. His eyes were their normal hue, thank God. I didn't think twice and averted my gaze to something else as I sat down. From the last glimpse I got of him, He looked down. His whole vibe was just blue and depressing. I think he feels bad for what he did or maybe he was worried about me. Class began, and I received a note from the kid next to me who said it was from Damian. I opened it and it was his number with a note written in sloppy handwriting 'Text me'. I sighed and brought out my phone carefully not to let the teacher see me I sent him a text. 

-texting-

Me: What do u want

Damian: I'm sorry :( 

Me: ...whtevr

Damian: I didn't men to hurt u like that...Y didn't u warm me, some1...some1 did that 2 u? Y didn't u speak up? I woukd have stopped...(theres typos because no one texts perfectly with auto correct existing)

Me: :/ would u hve tho?

Me: who told u ...? >:O

Damian: no1 important..just 4give me.

Me: ...leave me alone blocked!

-end texting-

I put my phone on silent and away with a sigh. My hands were shaking, I tried my best to focus on the lesson in class. It was hard when I could feel his stares and smell his cologne from so far. The bell finally rang to let school out for the week. I thanked the heavenly father and tried to reach my car in time. Unfortunately, he was there waiting. Shit, I thought guess I had to face him now or never. I walked slowly I couldn't help but feel scared of him now. Once I was standing face-to-face with him, I kept my eyes on the ground until he got closer and lifted my chin up. 

"My eyes are up here...not on the ground." Damian joked as his eyes lit up from the sun in his view.

I looked away before I got lost in them like last time.

"Don't be scared of me, please. I apologized for what I did. Can't you forgive me? I shouldn't have done it...I'm sorry." Damian apologized with puppy dog eyes and a crack in his voice.

His voice was also my new weakness because I got a little hard. I bit my lip and closed my eyes. If I didn't see him, I couldn't get horny, right? Wrong. I could still feel his thumb on my chin, his index finger under my chin holding me in place, and his proximity to me. I sighed and pushed away from him. If I don't make some type of boundary, I'll be devoured. I looked him dead in the eye with the best glare I could muster.