The Untold Love

Unsure

After another close encounter with Damian, I was left alone. Alex hadn't talked to me in four days. He didn't reply to my text, nor did he answer my calls. I felt so unsure about this. Even Damian has been ignoring me. I'd see him in the hallway with Lorissa wrapped around him like tape. My heart ached and I hated it. I shouldn't be feeling like this after just seeing someone for the first time in my life. There shouldn't be any 'love at first sight' going on right now. I stood in front of my car not ready for another day of being alone at school. Someone just kill me now, please end my suffering. I thought to myself as I grabbed my backpack and headed toward the building that all teens hated.

Until I faceplanted into someone, "Oof, wha-" my heart stopped. It was none other than Damian. I quickly looked away to hide the small smile that came up. I wanted to say so much to him but then I noticed Lorissa. My heart broke once more so I just stayed quiet, I moved aside and kept making my way to school until he grabbed my arm. 

"Meet me on the rooftop during lunch...I wanna talk." Damian said he then let my arm go and I continued my way inside.

 I headed straight for the restroom where I locked myself in one of the stalls and just cried. I was so confused. Does he wanna reject me? Does he like me? Will he leave if he finds out, or maybe he already knows about my past? I wiped my tears away then I smelled the cheap cologne Alex would wear. I sighed and opened the stall door to find Alex standing there with a small hopeful smile. I side stepped him and went over to wash my face before he pulled my arm.

"Hey! Don't ignore me!" Alex grabbed my arm and pulled me into one of his brotherly hugs which was needed.

"You're one to talk..." I choked out.

"Sorry, I just need some time to think and process stuff. You know I'm slow. But...you're really...?" Alex asked as he scratched the stubble on his chin.

"Yeah... I am sorry I didn't tell you I just couldn't find the right way or time to open up about it plus I was afraid you'd stop being my friend." I sighed and washed my hands quickly.

Alex laughed and looked at me, "I would never do that just because of your sexuality. Besides that, would be a waste of a long friendship just to end it because you're gay. The only thing that's been bugging me is... why Damian? Didn't you just get out of a bad relationship some time ago?" He finished; concern written all over his face.

"I was wondering that myself." I looked down again, "It's just something about him that I can't shake off. Maybe he's different or maybe I'm just desperate who knows." I shrugged.

 We talked for a bit then the bell rang, and we headed off to class. I got lost in the thought of every possible scenario that could happen at this 'talk' with Damian. I was a bit nervous about what he wants to talk about.

By lunchtime, my anxiety was through the roof. I ate my lunch with Alex normally until I remembered that I had to be on the roof.  I headed up slowly, when I got out on the roof the door behind me closed and I was pinned against it. My arms over my head and azure eyes just staring into mine. It took me a minute to realize it was Damian. I grew nervous all over again. Is he going to molest me again? I'm not ready!  I thought as I shut my eyes tightly.

"What do you want?" I asked hoping that he would let me go.

"I forgot what it was. All I could think about was kissing you. I don't know what's going. After we spoke yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about what could've happened to you. I asked Alex this morning, but he wouldn't tell, just threatened me to not hurt you." Damian said as he let go of my arms.

"I...You wanted to kiss me?" I asked as I rubbed the pain out of my wrists. 

Damian's voice was deep, but it sounded as though he was tired. I felt that he was as nervous as me. I did confess to him yesterday and he did to. Wait! Is he wanting to ask me out but doesn't know how to?! I smirked at the thought. Damian sighed heavily and pulled me closer to him.

"Yes, I do want to kiss you. Very badly. After we spoke and confessed to each other that's all I wanted to do." Damian smiled as he looked down at my lips then back at my eyes.

"Then why don't you?" I teased enjoying the fact he did want me in some way.  Damian...needs me. He needs me right now. I thought to myself. I fought over my thoughts for a bit before deciding to give myself to him. 

He smirked as he leaned in and placed his lips on mine. His lips were a bit chapped but the roughness of them was sending shivers down my spine. I didn't care for anything else at this point. I just wanted to give him everything.

He pulled away from me, "I want to take you home and eat you right up." He said before closing the gap between us again.

"Then do so." I breathed out. 

"Don't push it. I really would." Damian whispered as we got our breaths back. I grabbed his hand and moved off the door. 

"I was being serious. Let's go." I said and pulled him down the stairs. 

This was it. I was going to lose m virginity to this guy.