The Untold Love

Bitter Memories

I was released from the hospital three days later. I sat on the sofa Monday morning as I was excused from school to recover Alex comes by a few times after school I learned some juices gossip from him so now I know what has been going on in school turns out I did have some friends that worried about me besides Alex. I also heard from him that Damian has been seen around school and outside of school with that Pink crop top girl. It was strange this time, when he told me about it I thought it would bother me but it didn't I guess I was too focused on the one thing that happened at the hospital I shivered at the thought. 

These shakes haven't stopped since I left the hospital Dr said they will in a few days. But, I know the real reason why my body has been shaking was because of him; Ryker Atlas. The very human being who caused me to be this way, who's caused me so much pain between the abuse and the constant times he had sex with someone else while being with me. He toyed with my feeling and with my body in ways I sometimes wish I was dead when I was with him if you saw him at first glance he seem to be the nicest guy on earth with his sweet smile, pretty Hazel eyes, and his blonde/brown hair he was the same height as Damian 6'3 the only thing was that Ryker was 22 years old and a college student at Al Rev's Academy he was studying to be a Game Maker or something like that.

Anyways, Ryker had tan skinned, always dressed in a homeless style as he preferred to look less rich than he was. He wasn't too built but he did have muscles like Jack. But, I didn't fall for him because of that I got hooked by his sweet words and smile. I'm a sucker for kindness and tall guys plus I'm the type to fall in love at first sight which is a curse nothing ends well for me like that. Ryker and I only began dating after a month of being friends I thought I was in heaven everything went so well I even thought we'd get married someday but that all changed.

Half a year into the relationship he changed. He became an abusive asshole towards me as if I did something wrong to him it started off with aggressive hurtful words, then turned into throwing things at him and when he wasn't satisfied he'd hit me constantly to the point where I would pass out from the pain there were times he'd deprive me of my medicine my mom had noticed a few times and called the cops on him but that only made him worse. He then bring other people inside his home when I was spending the night over, he'd screw them sometimes he'd make me watch at times it would be virgins like me he was not gentle with them he always went rough as if he was telling me that, that's what he's going to do to me.  

This went on for days, and weeks until I took a beating that landed me in the hospital my mom was not happy she called the cops with proof of what he has been doing we went to court in hopes of putting Ryker in jail. But, that wasn't done he only got a few months in jail but my mom took that time to move from our hometown all the way across the state 4000 miles away in hopes he'd never find me. 

That was all for nothing he somehow got out early and found me at a vulnerable time he knows I live here now but luckily he doesn't know where and I hope it stays that way. I sat there lost in my thoughts and horrible memories of us I covered my face. My mom seemed to notice something was bothering me and sat by me she gave me a loving hug. 

"What's the matter, Maxy? Talk to Mama maybe I can help" She smiled I knew I couldn't hide anything from her so I had to tell her the horrible news.

"He's...back" My voice cracked a bit and her smile started to fade as if she knew, but she waited a bit before talking. "Mom, Ryker found me..."

She tighten the hug I could tell she was not happy but she was trying so hard to hide it. I slightly cried in her arms I was scared for my life. I was also scared that Ryker might come to realize I have moved on completely and that he might find out Damian is whom I've given myself to. I could imagine the horrible things he'd do to Damian if he knew about it all.

 "It's okay Maxy. I'll make sure that creep doesn't find you here. I'll have to make a call I don't want to but it's for the best." She kissed my forehead and went into the kitchen. A call she doesn't want to make? I wonder who she calling. I thought to myself I checked my phone and notice a missed call from Damian I should be feeling all giddy inside but I don't my heart already assumes that he's dating that girl since Alex told me Damian has been hanging out with her more. I put my phone down and stared blankly at the wall.

I need an escape from reality so I went up to my room and just tried to relax by playing some Minecraft luckily it helped a lot my mom came in with snacks and left this time she left the door open for good reasons. Just in case something happened my phone rang I checked it 'Damian' I sighed I didn't wanna deal with him right now but I shouldn't be an ass to him either he did waste his time visiting me a lot in the hospital. I answered.

"Speak or forever be banned from spam calling me" I sound a bit more irritated than I wanted. I heard him chuckle a little. 

"Heh, I just wanted to know how you were doing. I didn't call to get my head chewed off, well maybe licked yes but not bitten" I could hear the smirk on his face and just when I thought all feeling for him were gone I felt my cheeks heat up as I realized what he meant

"You nasty. I would never!" My face was a tomato by now 

"Heh heh, not what you said that night tho. So, anyways how are you feeling? Are you up for a visit?

"Kinky sex god... Ahem, I uh I'm fine just a bit shaken. I wouldn't mind a visit just be careful my mom has been on edge about something..." 

"I will. and good because I'm already outside. I'll see you in a bit." Damian hung up. I placed a hand over my chest. I still had feelings for Damian, feelings I thought were gone I heard footsteps and looked towards my open door to see the king of all sex gods standing at my bedroom doorway he wore a black shirt with an anime on it, dark blue jeans, and his usual red and black Nike's and then the smell of his cologne came in. 

"Prada..." I smiled a little 

"Hm?" Damian walked over to my bed and sat down fully on it once he took his shoes off "What about it?"

"You always smell like it. Expensive ass cologne for a rich boy. Smells nice tho, but not as nice as the other scent you've had before" I continued playing the game as he watched but then took the controls outta my hand and changed the game to a shooting game I watched him play this time, I'd usually fight him for the control but I had no energy to.

"What scent? As I said before I only smelled you at the time..." He seemed irritated so I stopped talking about it to avoid him getting mad.

"What do you mean by that? You only smelled me..." I looked at him he kept his eyes on the tv I so wanted to touch him  I oddly craved for him. In this situation, I shouldn't be thinking about something like that but I couldn't help it I still wanted him. So, I listened to my lust for once and crawled to him, he seem to notice and looked my way our eyes locked. His eyes were their normal shade of blue I got close enough to plant a soft gentle kiss on his lonely lips he didn't seem to mind. A smirk slowly crept on his face. 

"I mean...I can smell only you. Now, what was that for?" Damian's voice was deep as usual but something was different in it. 

"A thanks...you know for visiting me and for warning the nurses about that guy" I sat near him curiosity flooded his eyes I knew what he was gonna say next.

"You're welcome. So, who was he?"  His eye started to change a little there was a tint of dark blues. I knew I could avoid that question and I also knew I shouldn't hide it from him if me and him were to ever date in the future I sighed not wanting this conversation but it had to be done.

"An ex of mine..." I looked away from his beautiful eyes and stared at the tv I felt both nervous and nauseous "He was someone I thought wouldn't hurt me... someone I kinda thought we'd get married in the future...but he wasn't." I closed my eyes. A wave of emotions filled my heart as memories poured like acid rain into my brain.

It was time to confess the past to someone I like.