Are You Here?

After being free'd

It's been a month. Being in and out of the hospitals care. Being admitted sucked. I had made friends I'll never see again... I had to do a school program for them. All the realizations had finally hit... But it was ok. I'll be ok...

My dad had come and picked me up, filling out paperwork so that I could go home. I felt better than I did when I got in but still wasn't feeling all there. Everything felt like a dream.

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I had finally gotten my phone back and checked my notifications. He didn't text me at all... I got so upset. I just wanted to apologize but he wouldnt even let me. I got onto my public server with my friends hoping they would back me up.

You: Come out here and fucking fight me coward! I want to hurt you just like you have hurt me

Him:then do it pussy...

From there words were said that would only rip the hole back open. He led you on, he broke your heart, he hurt you again! It only took him a week to forget about me... I ment nothing. You snapped again, rushing to the nearest pair of scissors.

Before I could even think rationally... I had bruised my fist and sliced open my arms. Sobbing harder by the second. You could hear the voices coming back. Aladin your dog had tried to comfort you but didn't quite know how. You sobbed and rocked back and forth. Your brother had called mom and dad. They quickly rushed home trying to get it all out of you.

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The day was misty,cloudy and cold. You were ok.. we are ok...I'm ok. I can't think so I drown out everything with music... Just getting through the school day. I don't know if the CBD gummies are working. Everything just seems distant, and feels like I'm being watched from afar. I feel like I'm being played like I had been in a videogame. School is boring but before you knew it the day was over. You walked the building trying to keep from thinking about things, and feelings.

You're feet had suddenly gave out. There was nothing but pitch black darkness...