"Just Roommates"

| 23 | Hope

Bakugou pov:

Kirishima was taken away..
It's quiet now.
Everyone knows what happened.
Aizawa checked the storage cupboard right after and sure enough there was a bloody bat in it.
Everyone knows he hit me.
Everyone knows he killed someone.
Everybody knows.
Me and Todoroki watched a movie like always.
We were quiet though.
He seemed like he wanted to pity me.
But he knows I hate that.
He's such a gentleman..
Wait!!
No I mean he's an asshole!
He's a bastard..
Ignore what I just put.
Love is stupid and worthless.
I will never fall in love again.
Never!!
It causes problems and ruins lives.
We go to sleep like normal.
You could hear voices in the dorms.
Hero's dragging away the dead body, cleaning up the dorm. Denki had to stay with Sero and Ojirou.
Denki took it the worst I think.
They used to be Bestfriends too..
I can't sweat the feeling this is all my fault.
I mean he did kill for me.
He killed that guy because of me.
It's like it's constantly playing in my head.
Over and over and over.
'I'll come back'
He said.
He promised he would.
But I don't want him to come back.
I want him in jail.
He isn't getting out until 15 years have passed.
I think he'll be over me by then anyway.

(Next day)

After we got dressed into normal clothes we left.
We get a day off considering one of our classmates went to jail.
Everyone has to stay in the dorms for the rest of the week.
It's gonna be boring.

It's weird today.
It's oddly quiet.
Knowing Kirishima isn't there has left an empty hole in everyone's hearts.
Denki was sobbing with Mina in the morning.
When he stopped crying he comes to me.
"I-Im sorry.."
He apologises.
I try not to pity him.
I just hate feeling emotion.
It's mega weird.
And fucked up.
I wish I could be like Todoroki, he just doesn't get mad, doesn't pity as much.
He's who I'm trynna be.
I can't ever be him though.
I get mad over the slightest things.
"It's ok, I'm uh sorry too"
Denki shakes his head.
"No no I said s-such mean things.. I'm really sorry"
He apologises over and over again.
I forgive him each time.
I have an interview with Aizawa and the teaches or 1A today. For the news and newspapers.
I have to answer questions.
Aizawa is taking me and is gonna help me or some shit.

I walk out of the dorms and there's cameras flashing in my eyes.
I cover them, shielding my eyes.
"Bakugou, are you ready?"
Aizawa has his hair in a man bun, he's got a suit on and a bit of makeup on.
I nod and follow him.
Eri stays behind with the class, they look after her.
Since we have no school all the students have to look after Eri while Aizawa and I go.
All the teachers are going actually.
I think a pro hero is in principle Nezus position while we go though.
It wasn't long before we got there.
Everyone got all dressed up.
Midnight tried to 'fix' my hair.
I exploded her face away.

When the camera is on I have to sit there for agesss just watching All might and Aizawa answer questions.
Then it moves on to Nezu.
Then all the others.
I'm practically half asleep when they call on me.
"Katsuki?"
A lady asks.
"Eh? Oh right"
I sit up straight.
"How do you feel about all this?"
I roll my eyes.
I'd been thinking about this for a while.

"I wanna rip up my intestines and throw them in the sea, I want to take a knife and draw a line across my chest, I want to be torn apart excruciatingly. I wanna feel much better then I do when I am at my 'best'. I wanna fly away from my own body and find a better place. I wanna slash across what used to be my face. The scary thoughts are spreading like a weed I guess"

I close my mouth finally.
Her mouth hangs open.
"I-I uh this must be really hard for you.."
She stammers.
I chuckle at her stuttering.
Lame.
"I will get better soon, don't you agree?"
She asks, sympathetically.
"People say it gets better but it's really just a lie"
I snap at her.
I smirk at her shock.
"bit pessimistic.."
She looks down at the questions written down.
Her eyes fall to the next one.
She looks hesitant.
She swallows.
"tell me more about uh the last question before we move on!"
She gives me a fake smile.
I growl under my breath.
"We all fake it till we die"
I glare at her.
That was targeted.
"Anymore?"
I proper roll my eyes, with sass.
She sighs.
"The public were wondering.. well one of the most asked questions are 'since he's a yandere, how did he react when you got raped'"
My eyes go fierce.
"I did not get raped"
I denounced.
How dare she??
I don't want people to think I've been faking getting raped because of this bitch.
"But I thought-"
"Someone attempted it, they didn't actually do it though, Aizawa fucking beat his ass"
I fumed at her.
She opens her mouth.
Nothing comes out.
"let me rephrase that then.."
She looks embarrassed.
"How did he react when he found out someone attempted to rape you?"
I rage.
"He yelled at me"
She looks shocked.
"At you??"
I nod.
"I said it wasn't a big deal so he got all pissed about the fact I didn't care. Plus I didn't really tell him"
She nods.
"Aha"
She looks down again at her questions.
"What happened when he hit you on the head?"
She looks up from the paper.
"I don't fucking know!! I lost my memory"
She looks shocked.
"Oh!! Right.. sorry, why did he do it?"
She asks.
"To pretend he saved me from a villain"
She gives me a confused look.
"So I would love him more"
Her eyebrows shoot up her forehead.
"Ah! Right.."
She looks sympathetic.
"I'm sorry kid.."
I look at her.
Confused.
"You're a kid, you shouldn't have to go through this"
I realise what she means.
"Oh.. I guess"
That never really occurred to me.
I'm 17.
Not an adult just yet.
I'm not an adult and I've been kidnapped.
Been held hostage.
Been sexually assaulted.
Been assulated.
Someone was killed infront of me.
I stop to think about it.
It's so.. shocking.
I'm 17.
"What keeps you going after all these terrible things?"
I stop.
I guess I've always hoped one day I could be no.1
The number one hero.
Hope?
I guess.
"Just a little chunk of hope.. keeps me going everyday?"
"What do you hope?"
She looks so intrigued.
So nice.
Kind?
I forget about all the teachers and the fact we're live.
I really think.
What do I hope?
"I hope that one day..things will change.."
I look at my lap.
Suddenly finding it interesting.
I look at Aizawa.
Remembering he was there.
He looks at me, proud.
He seems hurt.
I ignore his hurt and focus on the good.
"yeah.. I want things to blow over"
I look back at her.
She is smiling at me.
Her eyebrows sad.
She nods at me.
Kirishima is in jail now.
I'll never be proper ok about that.
It's just the fact it feels like yesterday when we got together and now he's locked up for murder.
I'm never gonna not miss him.
Todoroki said he'll take me out today after the interview. He said we can go get boba.
I think everyone in the class likes me again after all the shit Kirishima pulled and they realised I was right to break up with him.