The Vow

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The love I had was pure and true

Or so I thought before I knew

That you had eyes for my own kin

And now my heart is caged within

How could you fall for him, not me?

Was I not enough, can't you see?

I gave you all I had to give

But in the end, it's you who'll live

With him, my brother, by your side

While I am left to mourn and hide

My tears, my pain, my shattered heart

All ripped apart, right from the start

I watch you both, in love and bliss

And know that I am just dismissed

My love, my life, now gone for good

And in my dreams, I wish you would

Come back to me, my heart's desire

But you're with him, the one I admire

And so I stand here, all alone

My heart forever turned to stone.

- Jeon Jeongguk

Gguk lay on his bed, holding a pillow that smelled like his love. He had seen him first. He had felt a connection in his soul, a desire to be with him, to kiss him, to tell him how he felt. But he couldn't. This was the first time he hated his inability to speak.

He hated the fact that Hoseok loved Jungkook, his younger brother. Why wouldn't he? Gguk thought to himself. Jungkook was everything that Gguk was not: smart, witty, charismatic, and able to communicate with words and sounds. And now that Jungkook will be marrying Hoseok – his hoseok. He had observed their interactions at the office - the way they looked at each other with a certain tenderness, how their smiles were different when they were together, and how their conversations seemed to be more intimate, but he didn't think much.

but now...Hoseok's brother wanted him to marry Jungkook. He had felt a stab of grief in his heart, a bitter feeling of rejection and loss. He had loved him first, but Kook had taken him away.