planet virgo | ALBUM1

tracks 5, 10 & 15's storyline

track #5 - earthling
stage 1: betrayal

earthling is the beginning of this miniature story within the story. it talks about welcoming this boy into my world thinking he was going to stick around. i didn't suspect a thing nor did i pay attention to the signs. i was foolish to think he was the one. i showed him so much and i opened myself up to him. figuratively. the betrayal of him running to someone else cut deep and it was the beginning of a heartbreak.

track #10 - plsing u
stage 2: anger

in plsing u, i began to experience the anger i felt after knowing what this person did to me. confused and lost, i wanted him to hurt the way i did. i wanted him to know the pain i was feeling and how i was trying my absolute hardest to win him back because deep down, i knew there was no one else for him but me. that toxic thinking was pleasing him in a way i didn't know it could. when i realized i was making him feel better about himself, i stopped.

track #15 - find what ur looking for
stage 3, final stage: acceptance, letting go and loving myself

in the end, after so long of being heartbroken, i finally realized that it's not worth it. i'm worth it. for a while i forgot about that. but once i did, there was no going back. there was only forward and i genuinely wanted what was best for me and the best for him. yes, there was a betrayal but i will never wish someone the worst - no matter what they do to me. there's no point. life moves on and there's no need to think negatively. karma will handle it all. it's her job to give him what he deserves. what i deserve is happiness and peace. that's my job.