One-Way Ticket | Jeon Jungkook

twenty-nine

So sorry for disappearing for like a month after dropping a bit of a cliffhanger. Life happened lol

I sincerely hope you enjoy this chapter; I know I have been looking forward to writing this one :) please don't hesitate with feedback.

I didn't eat. I didn't sleep. I didn't leave the house. I didn't even take properly care of my body. Because why even bother?
Two days since Dae-hyun kissed me and since the world had seen me cry real tears, not the ones from the screen. And two hours left before meeting Jungkook again. My body was restless, twitching and shaking, trembling fingers that hardly had the strength to pick up my mug of tea. It wasn't really of any use anyway; it had gone cold long ago. I hated how pathetic I was. Somehow, I had brought this upon myself, being so stupid and naive.

I hadn't done anything these past days. I skipped school Friday to evade the prying public, and I couldn't bring myself to even pick up a book, was it my textbook or the book Jungkook had bought for me. I felt guilty even looking at its blindingly white paper. I could still recall the feeling of Dae-hyun's lips against mine, and it made me recoil at the sickening sensation.

I stared down at the outfit I had picked out to wear, my heart thundering in my ears. A simple pair of jeans and a hoodie. It had gotten colder these past days; Summer fleetingly passing and Autumn marking its arrival. It was nothing special to wear and it perfectly fit my look. Somehow my face seemed hollower, my eyes sunken and lifeless. I guess the past weeks had taken a harder toll on me than I initially thought. Mechanically I packed my bag and wrapped a thin jacket around my body. The wind was sweet as I walked towards the bus stop, the scent of September apples already filling the air of Seoul. As I sat in the bus, the sky darkening above me, it began to rain. I hated how it was raining. It was like it predicted my downfall, our downfall. My body shuddered and I leaned against the window with my eyes closed. I wanted a moment of peace before hell would break loose.

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It was pit black. The sky was an unending world of darkness, so dark not even the stars could shine through, and blackened all of Seoul. The impenetrable ever-flowing wall of rain was slowly beginning to soak through my clothes, but I couldn't bring myself to ring the doorbell. I stood like a coward outside his door, waiting for myself to pick up the courage to reach forward and ring the bell. He was going to hate me after this. I just knew it. And I was selfish, I didn't want him to hate me. I wanted him to love me, just like he had told me he did so many times before.

Somehow, I pressed the bell. A muffled mechanical sound of a bell from the other side of the door startled me and was followed by a buzzer.
"Hello?" Jungkook. He was just on the other side. I already felt the tears strain at my waterline and fear settling in my stomach.
"...It's me." I said and the door clicked open to reveal him. He was wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt. Staring back at me with equally tired eyes. I felt my heart skip. It had been so long since I'd last seen him. Deep inside all I wanted was to throw myself into his warm arms and stay nestled there with him for eternity.
"Y/n," he mumbled, staring me up and down, noting how my wet hair clung to my damp face. "Come inside." He asked me to. There was a longing in his voice, like he wanted to embrace me after a month apart. And I just couldn't take it. I couldn't break him like this. Tell him that another's lips had been where his were supposed to.
"I... I just want to stay here." I said, voice trembling, a single tear quickly making its way down my cheek. I saw his eyes follow it and he gently closed the door behind him, standing just beneath the roof. "Hey, what's wrong, kitten?" He asked as if it were any other day, tilting his head at me. But we both couldn't deny it, it was never going to be the same. He made to take a step towards me and join me in the rain, but I just couldn't lead him on. It would be too cruel.
"I kissed him." The words had left my mouth before I could even blink, and he immediately stopped in his tracks. Jungkook didn't need any further explanation, he understood loud and clear, yet he asked: "Who?"