I stand by the road
waiting,
waiting for you to notice
as you pass me by.
my heart beats on
hoping,
hoping you show you care
lonely, so very lonely.
I laugh along
praying,
praying you notice something is wrong
crushed a little more every time you don't.
I walk to the bus alone
forgotten,
forgotten by you, the one who always remembers
I guess I'm just not worth the wait.
my mind whirs on
contemplating
contemplating if we really are a good match
waiting, hoping, praying.
My ears search wide
listening
listening as you drone on
decidedly doing nothing.
My hands seek to rip and tear
fidgeting
fidgeting in an attempt to tame the vile thoughts
I don't know what to.
I'm left out in the cold
ignored
ignored by you,
ignored by you.
I'm left to stand for myself
as I break
as I break in two
because of you.
You really don't notice,
I still don't act
trapped by my pride in an attempt to stay strong
strong enough to hold my tears till I get home.
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3/11/13
