I'm sitting upon a throne of air
too dazed, too confused to stand up
returning to the same lust
with or without love.
I'm drowning in oxygen
overwhelmed, overwhelmed
unknowing of where i stand with you
not sure what to do.
I keep crawling along
stuttering, cluttering
almost deliberately saying the wrong things
never knowing the right time.
I'm falling into my throne of air
too lost to save myself
falling from heavenly bliss to ground
over and over again.
so lost, confused
in danger,
being used?
I'm falling into my crooked path
falling in love or lust
treated the wrong and right way
such good bruises the next day.
We both agreed to this, i understand
but now I do not know
girlfriend of two years against...
well against me.
I keep falling, falling
not sure what do to
crying, just this once
me, your soon forgotten lust.
I try to be patient
just for you
but I'm not sure you care for me
as I care for you.
When you call i put on a brave face
hiding my confusion
my pain
my... betrayal?
The thought process whirs me on
piecing thought and feeling together
so lost, so confused,
what do i say to you?
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1/26/13
