Memories and Strangers (A danisnotonfire fanfic )

17: Confusion

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I opened my eyes to blurry orange lights in between darkness. The ground was shaking and my head was constantly hitting a hard surface. I had a terrible headache and I wasn’t able to figure out where on earth I was. 

I tried to blink away the tears out of my burning eyes.

My sight turned clearer after some time and I realised I was sitting in the back of a huge truck, my head leaned against a window. Outside there were a lot of cars passing the one I was in.

I turned my head away from the street, still struggling with the sharp pain in my forehead. I also had trouble breathing, but I didn’t know why.

My father was sitting opposite of me and his eyes were closed.

Between him and me, there was nothing in the whole empty back of the car but my hatred for him.

I turned around to see who was driving the car. I saw two hooded persons, one of them driving. They were silently talking.

I heaved myself onto my tired feet, feeling really light-headed.

I didn’t make it to really stand tall so I just crawled over on my hands and knees. It felt like hours until I reached the seats and I pulled myself up, my fingers heavily holding onto the hard cloth, trying not to collapse.

Suddenly I had trouble keeping my eyes open. I forced myself to stay awake a little longer.

Then I tapped the co-driver carefully on the shoulder.

The person turned around and I fell back in fear. It was my pale face staring at me out of the darkness of the hood.

I tried to scream but I couldn’t.

The other me said something. Or at least she mouthed it. I couldn’t hear her due to the loud humming in my ears.

I tried to ask her, what she was saying, but instead there was warm water drizzling out of my mouth and onto my white T-Shirt. It left a red stain right were it dripped on. But I didn’t pay attention to it.

I was distracted by some silent calls in my head. I couldn’t quite hear them but they sounded desperate.

I plugged my fingers into my ears to keep out the humming of the car only to realise, it didn’t work.

With all my power I got up again to ask the driver to stop the car, so I could understand what these people were trying to tell me. I that very moment the car stopped and the driver turned around.

It was Dan.

My heart started beating faster, I felt butterflies having an extreme party in my stomach. All I wanted was to hold him and kiss him and to tell him I missed him. But Dan didn’t look at me. He looked at my clone’s chest, where there was also a huge red stain.

Tears were streaming down his cheeks. He was saying something, his shaking hands running through his hair. Something had really upset him. He leaned over, trying to hold the other me’s face between his palms. For a second he closed his eyes, only for more tears coming out of them. Then he screamed something, carefully rubbing circles with his thumbs into my image’s skin. My heart ache at the sight of him, desperately trying to do something. But I didn’t know what.

Even though, seeing him that sad made me want to calm him down, but I just couldn’t move. I watched him shake the other me. I realised that the she had by then sunk down, awkwardly hanging in between the two seats. Dan pulled the he up, stroking his finger cross the pale cheeks, again.

One of his tears dripped onto her eye and in the same moment I felt a tears coming to my eyes.

I wanted to help him. Tell him I was alright. That the one he was upset about, wasn’t really me. 

Suddenly the humming turned down and I was able to understand the voices in my head. They were shouting:

”Get an ambulance!” “Get off her” “NO” “Please…not…true”, the voices were fading, again.

”Please…hold”, with every word it got harder to understand the meaning of the shoutings.

I wanted to scream. Tell them to speak louder and clearer. But still there was only water, effecting more red stains on my shirt.

I watched Dan place his forehead on my clone’s one. The image of the two got blury and I heard one last time Dan’s desperate voice sobbing and screaming simultaneously, suddenly clear: “Fay. FAY! NO! PLEASE. Please. Please don’t leave me”.

And then I understood. But it was too late.

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