(Senpenbanka Egoism) (Random tw warnings)
(Again, TW warnings. You can skip this if you want, this is not an important story as it's a stupid vent.)
There... Flower-senpai sat by the desk, engrossed in a book, exuding an air of effortless coolness. A smile formed on my face as I quietly opened the door, stealing a glimpse of her and feeling an overwhelming sense of admiration. It was our designated time for after-school cleanup, and just being in her presence made me inexplicably happy.
"FLOWER-SENPAI~!!!" I couldn't contain my excitement and called out to her, eagerly reaching out to cling onto her arm. "Hi!!!" My smile widened, eagerly awaiting the sight of her beautiful face. But instead, she turned around and... pushed me away. "Um, please refrain from touching me, Kagamine-kun." Her words carried the usual coldness, but there was something different this time. Anger and hatred seemed to fill her gaze, which left me perplexed and unsettled. This was completely out of character for her.
"H-huh? O-Oh... um... sorry..." I took a step back, my confusion growing. Concern etched onto my face, I asked, "Is everything okay?" I looked at her, worry evident in my eyes. She rolled her eyes, avoiding my gaze, and abruptly left the classroom.
In my determination to find out what was happening, I followed her until I saw she was accompanied by friends. Three of them, to be exact. Surprisingly, they didn't seem afraid of her. I felt a twinge of joy knowing that she had friends and people to talk to. It made me happy.
However, my worry still lingered, so I waved at her, attempting to get her attention because I wanted to meet her newfound companions. She glanced at me briefly before shifting her focus back to her friends.
Among them was a guy who appeared to be around her age. He had a haircut similar to mine but was taller and seemed more like a "real" guy. Although his hair had a different color. I couldn't help but feel a tinge of jealousy as I watched Flower engage in conversation with him. There were two other girls, both with brunette hair. One wore her hair in a side low-ponytail, while the other had glasses and bangs. They looked vaguely familiar. When their eyes met mine, they scowled and quickly averted their gazes back to Flower. "Um, who is he?" the guy asked, directing his question to Flower.
"Oh... him? Just a kouhai. He's not that important," she replied, her tone serious. My heart felt like it shattered into countless pieces. I approached her, looking directly into her eyes. "W-What was that for?! We're friends... aren't we?" The group regarded me with confusion.
"Friends? I... don't know you. So I suggest refraining from your clinginess, or I will take measures against your harassment and annoyance," Flower uttered coldly. Tears started to well up in my eyes as I looked up at her. "W-Why are you acting like this?" I clenched my fist, finding solace in its tightness. The group stared at me with indifferent expressions until the girl with the side ponytail spoke up. "You truly... don't remember the trouble you've caused?" The girl with glasses nodded, staying close to the side ponytail girl.
"You're nothing but trouble, Kagamine-kun," Flower declared, pushing up her glasses. "You affect everyone negatively... and you're SUCH a headache. I only stayed with you because I pitied you." She turned her gaze away, and the rest of the group nodded in agreement. "You're just an emotional burden...the emotional turnoil." The girl with the side ponytail added.
I held my tears, refraining from being sensitive and emotional. I looked down taking in their words. They... were right. Everything was my fault. I looked at Flower, before running away... but her expression stayed the same, an annoyed scowl to show she was fed up with being with me. To show I've caused so much. I gave up, taking in someone's advice to isolate...so I ran as the group smiled to see me go.. they really must have hated my presence, but worst of all... Flower hated me... which meant that I needed to force myself to..not like her. I cried, wiping my tears running through the halls and locked myself in the boys bathroom. I decided to text my twin, Rin.
"Don't talk to me, you know what you've done." Rin's text appeared on my phone, soon as I said hi... I stared at my phone, then looked up at the ceiling. Isolation did seem the best. Running away from problems... not... thinking about them. I wanted to cry even more, I wanted to choke myself to make it all end. I was confused about the situation...but then again I knew about it. It was so confusing... I decided to text Gumi and Luka... hoping to get something, but then realized I was avoiding them..too.
I stared at the stall, slowly realizing it wasn't a stall at all.... Wait a minute, I wasn't even IN the boys bathroom.
Why...where their eyes...surrounding me? So much gazes... so much...lies. So much pain.
People surrounding me, fed up with my presence... fed up with me being me. Fed up how I'm such a burden.
My breath quickened, reminding myself of Flower amd I's interaction.... Flower was right. I'm overbearing, so overbearing. I didn't deserve...anything. What if this was all for attention? Flower... and nobody else actually liked me. I'm...pitful. I'm sensitive..and I'm weak.
What's wrong with me?! What's even going on?!
Why are people gone again..?!
I grabbed my hair, and starting screaming waking up to my dimly litted bedroom, in my pajamas and messy hair.
The time was 3:14 am, .... I had a nightmare.. again.
But this time, it was a neverending one.
...I grabbed my throat...
and started choking myself.
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Banana Flower (A Vocaloid Ship Flowlen Story)
FanfictionKagamine Len, 14 years old and your average male counterpart who's a singer maybe possibly might have a crush?? Wait no, definitely does, Their name is Flower, a really good friend of Len's, they're tall, androgynous, cool, pretty and just amazing...
