Len's Angst/Vent Story Collection

Well...

TW

I'm childish, as everyone says.

I can't handle... proper communication.

"You're so..frustrating Len... you're so stupid, and you're such a headache."

I very well understand that.. I sighed, looking at the next person who was going to yell at me. Either my ex-friends, family or another alter conscious. I've always gotten yelled at, crap-talked behind my back. That's okay... I still keep my head high in music. People don't really consider me...me.. It's repetitive... but the only "hope" I have is music. 

Right, I was having a conversation with someone. 

"Yeah? Sorry. I'm here." My face was stoic, everything about me was empty. Gumi stared at me with frustration in her eyes, as Luka crossed her arms. I didn't understand their concern or anger. But I do know they said stuff, well..about me... behind..me.

Their mouths started moving again, when I was busy processing where I was, some..empty white room...like a void, everything was still and tiring. They continued talking... but I couldn't hear more. Someone already proved to me that I couldn't trust anyone. I needed to protect myself, away from them...from everyone. I nodded to what they said... then ran out, not looking back. The walls closed in, in this empty white..void. I kept running until everything went darker, and darker..and darker until there was a stool and noose in front of me.. making me stop in my tracks.

I stared at it, everything was black except those things. Familiar figures surrounded it.

The girl with the side ponytail stared at me with grief and frustration, and the same glasses brunette girl followed alongside her. They were like two peas in a pod. I gulped, looking to the next person.

Ah... other.. people who were familiar. A short girl, about my height... medium length hair and a flower hair clip. She looked upset, pushing her glasses up to her face... avoiding my gaze. I sighed, moving on to the next person.

Another familiar figure, taller, but younger girl. She had brunette hair as well, her fashion sense was purple.

Out of all those people, I felt a twinge of familial connections, a sense of pain jolting in my chest.

There were so many other people surrounding the noose, Rin... Miku, MEIKO, KAITO, Luka and others who I knew well. My friends, and family.

Everyone...

and...

her..

I took a deep breath, letting it all go as I saw the same boy beside me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"Don't you see...?!" He mumbled underneath the red mask of his. "I'm right...and you know that." He clenched my shoulder tighter.

I didn't care what he had to say. He was the one who caused it.

I was alone, and I was going to end it.

I knew they hated me, I knew those sad looks, and those fed up expressions.

I went on the stool, wrapping the noose around my neck.....until it snapped.

I hung there, as the images of the figures flickered away... making me realize I was hallucinating..till I died.