Len's Angst/Vent Story Collection

Another Stupid Vent ft. Bad Boy

(Another TW, and a stupid vent... atp I should make a book about this. /hj)

You can skip, it's not important.

"C'mon Len. You know they sucked." An agitated tone, followed along with a reminiscing voice belonged to a boy who looked like me, but different. His face was covered with a red mask. His eyes were canary yellow as his hair was a platinum silverish blonde. His hairstyle was an undercut with a curly ponytail, and his shirt was a graphic red and black design... as he carried a bat. He was the someone who I knew closely... someone who was a part of me,a different conscious, but a part of me. I stared at him, empty... already tired of what was going on. Was he really trying to help me at this point?

"Look, Flower... your friends and other people you're close to don't understand you. Why? Cause they're stupid and care about themselves. Which is why you're so better off alone without those FAKE and untrustworthy people." He held his bat, looking straight at me. "You better not deny it this time. Remember how she said everything behind your back... and lied to even liking you. In truth, she was really fed up with you.. like others." He groaned, looking at me and crossing his arms. My expression was blank, and empty... pretending not to process this. I really didn't care anymore if I was alone or had nobody. Maybe he was right, maybe he was wrong... either way I only know I have myself. Who cares if Flower didn't love me and decided to go with others? I didn't. Let Flower do what she wants. I'm too tired for this.

Bad Boy (the person.) scoffed, like Flower did... before. "I never really liked her anyways... She was such a liar. I'm honestly glad you two aren't together." He then looked straight at me. "Be happy you aren't with such people."

My tears started flowing again, I really didn't want to even think about this, I don't care anymore...and I didn't want to hear about Flower anyways. Sure, whatever I've agreed with Bad Boy at this point... but it caused me so much baggage. I still... loved her? Even though.. I'm really supposed to hate her. Everyone leaves...all the damn time. I covered my face, sniffling... I know I was an emotional wreck... but for now, who can blame me?

"Ugh... don't cry for them." He looked around awkwardly, unsure what to say or do to my reaction. I was an emotional wreck... like cmon, I've lost everybody. "Look... they're at fault.. I'm just saying my intuition is right. People will always treat you like that and lie to you if you're...weak like that. They take advantage of you...and go with someone else." He grimaced underneath his mask. It looked like some memories had been brought up.

I sniffled, looking away. "I don't know WHO to believe anymore. I just want it to end..you know? I'm supposed to...hate people, but I don't. Weren't you the one who even did this..? Removing people?" It felt like I was talking to a wall. This was a cycle, a never ending cycle.

"I'm suggesting it for your own good. Flower doesn't love you, and that's that. Don't cry over it as she doesn't really matter."

I gritted my teeth. "Well she clearly does. I wouldn't be like this if... I don't know.. SOMEONE made me lose people." I am used to isolation... but I'll admit he made me go further into isolation. "I don't HAVE anybody else to rely on. And don't say I don't need people to rely on." I looked at the floor. "I need...someone." Tears dripped to the floor... I felt like I was drowning in my own emotions, more...morbid..intrusive emotions. "Why do you hate.. people so much?" I asked, barely in a whisper. I felt inferior and weak. Nothing went right.

"Because... people hurt you all the time. People are untrustworthy and take advantage of you. I said this before, of course you didn't listen. You're stuck up on your "true love" who doesn't want to even see you! Len... NOBODY wants to see you?!" He clenched his bat in anger, having the familiar frustration in his eyes like everybody else.

"Have you ever wondered why...? I've been trusting you because I have nowhere else to turn too. I'm alone. I'll always be alone." I plopped on the ground, clenching it. Sure, nobody cared.. sure, everyone was fed up with me... and sure.. I knew very well about how people never considered me.. "me" and lied to me with excuses. I didn't understand why I was so weak all the time.

I drowned out Bad Boy's words, slowly closing my eyes... I didn't want to miss Flower and the others so I just.. cleared my head slowly falling asleep from this headache of a time.

Just let me die.