Len's Angst/Vent Story Collection

What's Going On

(TW )

Vomit... so much vomit escaping from my mouth. I was in the boys bathroom, my usual hiding spot in school.. skipping classes, avoiding everyone. They all hated me. I gasped, breathing heavily feeling panic arise in my body. I couldn't see clearly... gasping. The same repetitive feelings rushed over. I grabbed my hair, pulling it out... my hair was already a mess with my hair spikes and ponytail. But.. I am a mess in general. I couldn't go out there... I knew they'd laugh at me.. blame me for something... want to beat me up.

I've asked myself this so many times... What was wrong with me?! I looked up at the bathroom ceiling, hoping it was there.. hoping my settings won't change.

... Tears... coming back.. again.

I'm skipping class, I don't care if I get an absent or bad grades. I need... to..

I vomited again. Gasping for air. I probably looked so gross right now, but that was the least of my concern. The panic was still there. My palms clenched the floor as I forced myself to stand up. My body felt weak and ill... but I still tried. I opened the stall weakly... heading to the sink, washing my face and mouth. I looked up, staring straight at myself.

I was... absolutely in shambles. My hair was completely messy, making it appear wavy. My hair accidentally came undone.. leaving my spikes. There were dark circles underneath my eyes, and my whole eyes were puffy. My school shirt was a mess and my pants were unbuttoned. My... binder felt too tight... making me feel more constricted.

Did I always look this stupid..? I put my hands on the mirror, staring straight into my brown irises, they jolted and my eye twitched.

I... forgot what I was doing, but I found myself letting out a scream.

And then, I woke up ... in my bedroom.