You are the reason to live. ~Elmax~

im here for you

El's pov:
I woke up. I felt so bad for making Max leave. I really love her and all but I just cant be with her. Im gonna hurt her. I know it. "knock knock" Who the hell is here at 9.24am!!? I went to open it. I was ready to use my powers because my dad said that I have to be ready fight if brenner or his friends will find me. It was Max. How didnt i realise.

Hi El! Max said smiling. Hi max. I said not showing emotions. Max came in. What you want for breakfast. Max asked me. Im not hungry. I said. I ate already 2 eggos at the night. I said lying. Your lying!! Max said looking me with sad eyes. Im not!!? I tried to sound as real as i could. I know you didnt!! when you kicked me out i went to ur rooms window.Max said. YOU DIDNT. I looked at her a bit scared because now she knows what i did. Yes i did El. Max said. I got up from the couch we we're sitting in and walked to my room. i slammed the door with my powers. I felt so embarrassed. Max saw how i watched myself over the mirror and cried. And she also saw how fat i am. Oh god this is so embarrassing!! i snapped out of my toughts when Max was screaming from the door i was still holding with my powers. EL ARE YOU OKAY!!!!!!!!! EL OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE!! ELEVEN ANSWER!!!!! EL IM GONNA BREAK THIS FUCKING DOOR SOON!!!!!!???? PLEASE EL JUST OPEN THE DOOR IM WORRIED!!! YOU OKAY!!!!????? Max yelled like a little girl. I stopped holding the door with my powers. Max fell on the floor. She tried push the door open i think. Oh my god El!! Why didnt you open it sooner!!!??? Max ran to me and sit on the bed where i was laying. My face was against my pillow. Max turned me around. This is so embarrassing. I said putting my hands to cover my face. What is embarrassing? Max asked in a confused tone. That you saw me last night crying over my body and you saw how fat i am. I said embarrassed. El what the hell! You arent fat at all!! Max said and she came laying with me. I suddenly started crying. I dont know why. All the pain what was inside me just came out. I wanted to scream all that pain out. El what is it? Max asked worried. Nothing im just so tired to live. I said. El no no no. We're gonna get you some help. Max said with so worried tone. She wrapped her arms around me. I will never let go of you. I will not let you hurt yourself any more. Max said seriously. gosh how sweet she is. I tried to sit but Max pulled me back to laying. No. Max said sharply. But Max i have to pee! I said. Hmm. Okay then.. Max said. I got up. Max took my hand and got up with me. She finally let go of my hand when we we're at the toilets door. You're going to pee? Max asked quickly before i went inside. Yea why? I asked and looked at her confused. 2 minutes. If you will take more than 2 minutes i will break the door and come inside. She said smiling sarcastically. im pretty sure she didnt say it as joke. Shes so overprotective and I love it. and 2 minutes is quite long time to pee. When i flushed the toilet she knocked on the door. El are you ready!!? She asked. Yes let me wash my hands. I washed my hands and open the door. Max was standing next to the door. Are you okay? she asked softly. Max.. I went to the toilet. I was probably 40 seconds there. I looked at her and giggled. Alright sorry i probably sound like a creep but i dont want you to get hurt!! Max said seriously. im tired. I said almost closing my eyes. El.. It's 11.36 in the morning.. Max said. I know but i didnt get sleep much yesterday! I said. Oh!! Then we are going to sleep! Max said smiling. Oh no you dont have to! I said smiling. I wanna! Im sleepy too! Max said trying to look like sleepy. Yeah whatever! I said smiling and rolling my eyes playfully. I went to the bed. Max went to the floor. Max what the fuck are you doing. I asked confused. Oh yeah can i have blanket?? Max asked smiling. No. i said. Oh okay.. Max said and went laying on the floor. I tought she was joking first. Max what are you doing!! I asked. Sleeping? she said looking at me. You cant sleep on the floor dummy!! Youre coming here with me! I said. But You cant sleep if im next to you, I take so much space. Max said. Cmon we we're already today laying in here! I said. Yeah but im scared you cant sleep if im next to you!! Max said. I was confused. Yes Max I can!! Now get in here! I said smiling. She got up and came laying. I lifted my blanket and covered Max with it too. Our legs touched. When did you change ur clothes? Max asked. How did you know i changed my clothes? I asked confused. Because you're having shorts, You had baggy jeans before. Max said. I got up and put my jeans back on. What are you doing El? Max asked confused. I tought you felt unconfortable when i had shorts? I asked. What el ofc not!! I dont care what are you wearing as long as youre confortable. Max said smiling. I took the jeans off again and went on the bed. Arent you hot? you have blanket and hoodie? Max asked me. A little, But i only have sports bra under this. I said. if you want you can be in your sportsbra if you feel confortable because i dont mind. Max said. OF FUCK I SOUNDED LIKE A CREEP SORRY! Max said fast. Hahah dont worry you didnt! I said as i took the hoodie off. I felt ashamed because of my scars and some of them werent even old. I just looked my hands as i was sitting in the bed. Hey El. It's okay to have scars. It shows how strong you are. Max said giving a warm smile to me. Thank you Max. I said smiling. Remember El im always here for you. You cab talk to me about everything i promise I will help you get trough all this. Max said softly. Her eyes were already closed. Thank you Max. And you can always talk to me too. I said. I turned around. I saw only the wall now. Suddenly i felt Max pulling me to a warm hug. I didnt mind. I knew she liked me and She knew I liked her. I wanted to ask her to be my girlfriend i was just too scared and i dont think i want her to be my girlfriend because I will probably hurt her. Then i fell asleep. I woke up and Max was still asleep. I looked at the clock. 5.18pm. We slept 6 hours. I went laying next to Max again. I watched her sleeping. She is so cute. suddenly her eyes opened a little. What... Time is it..? Max asked still half a sleep. It's 5.27pm now. I said quietly. Okay.. She said still half asleep. I dont wanna get up yet. She said. Okay. Im going out for a walk. I said. I actually just wanted to go to the woods and cry all my pain out. Not hurt myself atleast not much. Just cry and let all the pain out. Okay.. Max said. I was suprised that she let me. I got up and got dressed. I took the blade quietly from my desk. Max heard me and sat up. What are you doing? She asked me. She saw what i took. Uh i was going out for a walk? Like you said it was okay? I looked at her and smiled hoping for she didnt saw what i took. El. Take the blade out of ur pocket. And Come back to bed. Max said in a sad eyes. I was going to take out the blade but then i rememberd i had other in my other pocket. Look. I'll leave the blade in here ok? I will come back in 20minutes. I said smiling. okay 20 minutes. Not a second longer. Max said looking me seriously. Yes mom! I said joking. I went to the door but Max grabbed my hand. El please dont do anything to yourself. I love you more than anything. She said and kissed me. i felt so much butterflies. I wont i promise. I said smiling. Good. See you soon. Max said smiling. I left and ran into the woods. I sat down at the tree where i tried kill myself 2 days ago. I failed so badly. I could do it now again but i really didnt wanna leave Max and hurt her. If she even loved me really. I started crying i took the blade and did something really stubid. I cut my hand open. after i did it i realised i couldnt hide that from Max. Because the only way i could hide it is wearing a glove. And she isnt stubid. I cut my legs open too. Then i looked at my watch. it was been 15 minutes. I quickly got up and ran to the cabin. I knocked on the door. Hi El! Max said smiling. Wait.. are you okay? Her smile faded and she started look worried. Why i wouldnt be? i asked. Because your mascara is all over your face.. She said worried. Oh fuck i didnt wash it when we went to sleep at morning. Oh uh yea there started raining! I said. Damn that was a bad lie. Max looked at me with "i know youre lying" look.
Okay i just cried! I said after that. Why. Max asked with a sad tone. I took off my shoes and went to laying to my bed. Max came laying with me. El tell me whats wrong. She took my hand. I tried pull away but she was holding it. Then she froze. El.. She said with tears in her eyes. i fell. I said quickly. No you didnt. She said in a sad tone. I did! I really did!! I tried. She stood up. Stood up. She said to me. Okay.. I said and stood up. She went trough all my pockets. I know what she was searching. Max stop! I said. No El i wont stop! You promised me you wouldnt hurt yourself! You lied! Max said crying. I started crying so much. She found the blade. Im so done. Max said.
Max took the blades and stormed off of the cabin. I fell down on my knees. I started crying more than ever. The only person i loved left me. Then i heard a door opening. It was Max. She came back. She ran to me. El!! She yelled and came to hug me. we we're at the floor. I cried in her arms. I-I tought you left me. I said. El!! I would never leave you I promise. Max said. She cried too. Then why did you leave.. I asked. I threw the blades to hell. I will not let you do anything bad to yourself again. She said. The clock was 9.36pm. Im here for you El. I promise. Max said. I cried 3 hours straight in her arms. Then i fell asleep.

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