You are the reason to live. ~Elmax~

Robin<3

El's pov:
I woke up. the klock was 9.37am. Im supposed to meet Robin at 1.30pm. Wake up Maxiee! I said smiling. She smiled a tiny bit. Oh no is she still asleep what should i do!? I said sarcastically voice. Max smiled a tiny bit again. I kissed her on the forehead. She smiled. Maxie I know you are awake. I said. Max's smile faded. Yeah dont try i saw you smiling. I said. Alright.. If you're not awake i guess im just gonna go to the kitchen and stop cuddling with you. Dont you dare stop cuddling with me. I heard the redhead saying. Oh so you are awake. Im not. Max said. Oh yeah sorry you are asleep. I said smiling. I kissed her. Are you awake now? I asked. No answer her eyes were just closed and she was smiling. I kissed her again. Now??! still nothing. I asked. I kissed one more time. ARE YOU NOW AWAKE? I asked. Max smiled and opened her eyes. Maybe. She said. Finally! I said softly. You and Robin will meet in like 3 hours. Max said looking in the clock. yeah! I said smiling nervously. It's gonna be fine you know! It's nothing like in the lab. Robin wont do anything bad I promise. Max said with a calming tone. I know.. I said. School starts in 2 days, We could go shopping tomorrow?? Max asked softly. Yes sure! I said smiling. Let's go eat breakfast and get dressed up! I think after that we have to leave because we have to walk. Max said. Alright! I said.

What Max is wearing:

(sorry almost all Max's clothes are what she wore in the show but its so hard to find some clothes what Max could actually keep😭)

what El is wearing:

(without the phone and the bag)

El's pov:
Me and Max dressed up. I had college shirt and jeans. The Jeans we're Max's because my own pants we're dirty. Max made herself 2 toasts and 1 eggo with strawberries for me. I was really anxious with eating the eggo. It's alright. You dont have to rush with eating it, take your time. Max said as she noticed i stressed about eating. I slowly nodded. The clock was 11.30am. I finally finished. It took a 1 hour and 17 minutes to eat one eggo. Im proud of you. Max said smiling. I smiled back. We actually have 1,5 hours 'til we have to leave, It takes only 30 minutes to walk at Robins house. Max said. Okay! I said. Do you wanna spend the next night at your or my house? I asked. Yours because I know you wanna be there rather. Max said smiling. Nooo I wont mind being here!! I love it here!! I said smiling. Alright well you can still choose! Max said. Let's spend the night at ur house if were going tomorrow at starcourt. I said. Alright! Max said. We we're watching movie and cuddling. I wanted Max to be my girlfriend but I was too scared to ask and how i would even ask her! Oh shit the clock is 1.10pm!! We're gonna be late! Max said as she looked at the clock. Lets go!! I said. We put shoes on and literally ran to Robins house. We made it!! I said trying to catch my breath for running the hole time. Yeah! Max said trying to catch her breath. We knocked. Robin opened immediately. I think she was on the door waiting for us. Hi El and Max! Robin said sweetly. Hii! Me and Max said at the same time. Can i wait in the living room? Max asked. Yes ofcourse, Make urself home you know where you can find food and everything. Robin said to Max. They're bestfriends, Max have spend many nights at Robins. Robins house was kinda big. She had her office in the second floor. Actually.. Can Max come with me for the first time.. Im kinda nervous. I asked shyly. Yes ofcourse!! Robin said sweetly. If its okay to you Max? I asked smiling a little. Ofcourse I will come!! Max said as she get up from couch. Robin shut the door behind her as we went to a room where was couch and a chair. Robin sat in the chair and Me and Max went on the couch. So El, Max told me you have problems with eating,selfharming and you're struggling much.. Robin said. Yeah, I mean im not struggling that much! I said lying. El if you want to get better you cant lie you know.. Max said to me. Alright sorry. I said. Yes im struggling a fucking much. I said almost crying. You wanna tell me about it so i could understand you more? Robin asked softly (a/e: HELP SORRY IDK WHAT IS LIKE TO BE A THERAPIST IVE ONLY BEEN IN THERAPY FEW TIMES AND IT WAS LIKE THIS.) Uh I.. I guess I could try. I said starting to tear up a little bit. You know you can cry El. Robin said to me. Yeah I know. I said starting to cry a little. Max took my hand. So uh.. I was abused in the lab as i was children I think Max told you about it.. Well my ex-boyfriend bodyshamed me really much for being fat and told me i dont deserve live.. So uh.. I realised all he said was true.. After that my life just started going downhill. I started selfharming for making me feel better.. It worked and still works but the scars are really hard to hide.. Well eating.. I do eat but usually throw up all of it.. Then I just felt like nothing could save me anymore so i tried kill myself.. Max find me in time what is sad. And now well im feeling the same. All i wanna do is leave. I dont even know what im doing here anymore. I wanna fucking die. Im fat ugly piece of shit. I just wanna take out a knife or blade and just cut my hands and legs open. I said crying really much. I saw Max crying too. Robin was tearing up a little bit. Sorry I shouldnt be crying but you're my friend not just patient. Robin said. And El you have so much for live. Your girlfrie- your bestfriend Max, the party, ur dad, And me. Robin said sweetly. We talked something awhile. Someone rang the doorbell. Oh fuck that must be my next patient. Next week monday at 3.30pm new time if its okay for you El? Robin asked. Yeah i think its okay. I said. Bye girls!! Robin yelled as we left. Bye Robin! We yelled back smiling. We went to Max's house. Come here El. Max said as she were laying ln her bed. I went to lay next to her. Our faces were inches away. I could feel her hot breath. You know El.. You're the most prettiest,funniest,smartest,strongest,kindest and sweetest girl i have ever met. I love you so much and I promise I will do anything to make you feel better. Just say if you need anything. I promise I will support you no matter what. Max said crying. I started crying of happiness. I.. I dont know what to say Max.. I love you so much too and I promise I will support you too no matter what. You're the most prettiest girl in the world and I dont know what to do without you. I said smiling and crying still.
Max started cry too. Just for you to know, These are happy tears. Max said gigglin. Yeah i know and dont worry these are happy tears too!! I said giggling too. I know. Max said. Can we go sleep? I know it's only 11.38pm but im very tired. I said. Yes ofcourse! Max said smiling. We went to sleep.

1333 words! I might do many parts today because i have to sit 8 hours in the car⁉️😭