You are the reason to live. ~Elmax~

the spies

Robin's pov: Me and Max got up from the car and started walking towards to Hopper's Cabin. Alr red, tell me whats the best window! I said smiling. What do you mean best window? Max asked confused. You know where we can see her!! I said raising my eyebrow. Oh yeah sorry Im slow! Max said giggling a little. I giggled too. We got in the window and went to sneakily look from it. Alright now you gotta be quiet, She can hear us if were too loud. Max said whispering. Alright. I said whispering back. We didnt see El first. Where the hell is she?? I asked whispering. Shh, she's probably eating or something!! Max said whispering. You think shes eating? I asked whispering confused. No but always can hope so!! Max said whispering. Shh there she is!! I whispered fastly. El was crying. She went to her closet and got a hoodie and shorts. She took away her shirt. DAMN! Max said still whisper-yelling. Max thats total creep of you you know that! I said whispering. I cant help if she looks good, Plus I just said she looks good because shes my bestfriend. Max said whispering still looking at El who was changing. After El had changed she went on the mirror.

El's pov: I changed to Hoodie and shorts. then I went to stand infront of mirror. Touching my thighs and crying. All my sadness had turned to anger. i took a blade and cut my leg. WHY YOU Y'ALL CANT BE JUST SMALLER. WHY YALL HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING FAT!!!!! I yelled crying while I cut my tighs.

Robins pov: We heard what El yelled. I was so shocked. I looked at Max. She had tears in her eyes and she looked like she wanted to go and help her. Ofcourse I wanted too but I dont know how she would have reacted. Max just watched El cutting herself looking traumatized. I couldnt watch Max crying and looking at El anymore. I pulled Max away from the window and she sobbed in my arms. I.. I have to go in El needs help and... and I-I cant help her from here.. Theres..There's nothing I can do to Help her!! Max said as cried and tried to get up. Alright lets go in. I said.

El's pov: I started cutting my hands open too. I heard some wierd noice coming from outside. I couldnt care less still. Until I heard someone at my door walking in there. The noice stopped so I just tought It was squirrel or something. I decided to take a nap because i was feeling dizzy from all the crying and yelling. as I shut my eyes i fell asleep. I woke up 2 minutes later Max and Robin cheking on my arms and legs. I got up in a second. What the hell y'all are doing!! I asked as I pulled my sleeves down and Jumped off the bed and put baggy jeans on. El we saw already the scars.. Max said. Yeah idc go to hell both. No. Max said crying. What do you mean no?? I asked annoyed. We want to help you so please let us. Robin said. There is nothing y'all cant do if you dont know how to take pain away. I said coldly sitting on my bed as Robin and Max came to sit next to me. Max was on my right side and Robin on left side. We cant take ur pain away but if you tell us all it might help the feeling.. Robin said. What you wanna hear? Im suicidal? Papa abused me? Papa Sexually assaulted me? What you wanna know!! I yelled crying. W-wait Brenner sexually assaulted you..? Max asked crying. Yeah he did since i was 4. I said crying. That's why you didnt want me to touch you at the car isnt it.. Max asked. Yes that and because Pa- Brenners helpers were holding me back even tough i didnt want to when they threw me to an empty room. I said crying pulling my legs to my chest. El im so sorry, I cant even imagine how horrible you felt and your feeling now. But please just talk to us. We can try help. Robin said rubbing my arm. I.. I dont feel really good.. I said. What do you mean El??!! Max asked as I started shaking. I feel dizzy. I said. El when was the last time you ate?? Robin asked panicking. She ate today I saw it!! Max said fastly. I threw it up.. At home. I said almost passing out. Max fast go get El a class of water and something quick what she can eat right now!! Robin yelled. No.. No i cant eat, Im starting to lose weight really much!! I said in Robins arms almost passing out. Alright El hold on dont pass out alright?? Robin said to me. Ok..ay. I said. El drink this!! Max said fastly. She gave me orangejuice. I drank it. You feel any better?? Max asked shaking and crying. No.. I said. I passed out. El cmon wake up!!! I heard Max saying crying while she hold me in her arms. I opened my eyes. El!! Max yelled happily and still crying. She hugged me tight. She was sitting on the bed while I was laying on her. wha.. what happend..? I asked. you passed out, you motherfucker scared the hell out of me!! Max said crying as she was still hugging me. I- Sorry Max.. I said. No El its okay it wasnt ur fault!! Max said. No.. I meant what I did to you in the car and at school.. I dont deserve you.. I said crying a little even tough I was still half "sleep". Im sleepy.. I said. Uh I dont think its good if youre going to sleep right after you passed out!! Max said. But.. Im really tired. I said closing my eyes. C'mon El something can happen! El dont!! Max said shaking me. I was fully asleep. Robin ran at me. A.. are you ok.. ha.. has El woken u-p yet.. Robin asked trying to catch her breath after running. Where you have been!! And yes El woke up but she said shes sleepy and now she sleeps and I dont know if its okay to sleep after you passed out and im freaking out!! Max said crying showing almost all emotions. Its alr let her sleep. Robin said. Im gonna stay with her.. You can go home Rob if you dont wanna stay. Max said sweetly crying. No I'll stay just in case. Robin said.
I dont think we all can make it to the bed. Max said chuckling. Yeah but its alr i'll sleep on the sofa. Alright, there is pillows but here is better pillow!! Max said as she handed Pillow to Robin. Thanks, Good night.. Or whatever i am supposed to say.. Robin said giggling. As I was asleep Max came laying next to me and hugged really tight. I woke up it was 9.38pm. Max was snuggled up in me. My eyes were stinging from all the crying. I heard the television on. I think  robin is watching it. Hey El, are you feeling any better?? The redhead said and hugged me tightly. Yes I am thank you for asking. I said smiling. What time is it? Max asked. Oh uh its 9.41pm. I said fastly. Oh okay. Lets go to eat something please. Max said as she looked at me. Noo I dont wanna get up. I said. If i'll go to do food for you do you promise to eat it? Max asked. Yes but you wont go anywhere because I wanna cuddle with you. I said smiling as I hugged Max really tight. Alright I'll say to Robin. Max said. Okay i'll sleep until the food is ready. I said. ROBIN!!!!! Max yelled because the door was closed. Yes Max? AWWWW CUTE!! Robin said to us as she saw us cuddling. sure and El and Me are hungry can u make us food?? Max asked. Ofcourse!! What y'all want??? Robin asked. Eggos!! I said fastly. I'll take eggos too then! Max said. Okay so 2 eggos?? Robin asked. No only half eggo to me. I said fastly. El you wont be full with it!! Max said as she looked at me with sad eyes. I'll be fine, one full eggo to Max and half to me!! I said. Alright. It will take like 10-15 minutes to me figure out how to make them. Robin said giggling. YOU NEVER HAVE DONE EGGOS????? I gasped. No i havent.. Robin said. WHAT. I said dramatically. I HAD TASTED THEM BUT NEVER MADE THEM ALRIGHT? Robin said giggling. Me and Max giggled too. Y'all want me to close the door?? Robin asked as she winked. No it's okay I dont mind you seeing us cuddle. I said. Yeah Me either! Max said. Alrightyyy!! Btw El is it okay if I sleep here because its so late already? Robin asked sweetly. Of courseeee!! I said smiling. Thanks!! Robin said. Robin left to make them. Night Maxie, Wake me up when they are ready!! I said. Night Ellie, I'll wake you up when they are ready!! Max said and she kissed my forehead. El wake up the eggos are readyy!! Max said. Noo already? Im sleepy.. I said. You can go sleep after you have eaten this!! Max said smiling. I was snuggled up against her. Noo I dont wanna take my hands off around your body! I said with a sad face. Okay, Open your mouth! Max said as she took the half eggo and gave me bite of it. I heard someone giggling so much, It was Robin. She stalked us. ROBIN DONT STALK YOU BITCH!! Max yelled to her. IM SORRY I JUST COULDNT HELP BUT LOOK Y'ALL!! Robin said giggling. ITS NOT FUNNY DO YOU WANT THAT ME AND EL COME AND LOOK WHILE YOU AND NANCY MOUTH FUCK EACHOTHERS?? Max asked her as a joke. Robin gasped and her jaw dropped. How dare you!! AND ME AND NANCY DO NOT MOUTHFUCK EACHOTHERS WHAT THE HELL. Robin looked at us laughing still jaw dropping. I saw y'all literally eating others when you were at Mikes.. I said acidentally. YOU WHAT. Robin asked. HELPPPP YOU DID??? Max asked laughing. Yes I was going to the bathroom and Y'all forgot to close the door.. I said almost bursting into laughter tears. Robin was quiet and just looked at us with redface. Me and Max laughed so much. Okay so what we do kiss sometimes because were bestfriends!! Robin said fastly. So you think this is how you kiss someone whos only your friend? Max asked as she put her hands on my cheeks, turned my face around and started kissing me. Ofcourse I kissed back. I didnt look but I could tell Robins jaw dropped again. We kissed like 30 seconds. We tried to catch our breaths. Robin just stood there jaw dropping. Y'all should to that more often btw. Robin said smirking to Max. Cmon there is nothing serious between us we just showed you what Nancy and You did! I said. Exactly!! Max said. Suree!! Robin said. Me and Max had already eaten because we talked so long with Robin. Give me y'alls plates and I'll go and take them to kitchen, Then i'll go and watch some tv and then go sleep, Dont stay up too late y'all have tomorrow school!! Robin said smiling. Okay mom! Max said joking. Robin just rolled eyes laughing a little. You wanna do something before going sleep? Max asked smiling. Uh I have to write something to my diary! I realised and I got up. I wrote it like 3 minutes until i felt hit breath on my neck. Max do not watch what im writing. I said. Dang it!! How'd you know I was here!! Max asked confused. Next time dont breath in my neck so you will maybe not get caught. I said. Go to bed im coming in five minutes!! I said. Alright. Max said. I wrote five minutes to my diary like I said and went to bed. Me and Max looked at eachothers. You have the prettiest eyes you know that? I said smiling softly. You know you have the prettiest face. Max said softly. We just looked at eachothers. She leaned in. We started kissing. After like ten seconds We heard something from the door. I KNEW IT!!!!! Robin yelled smiling. We quickly pulled away. Umm.. Knew what? Max asked trying to act dumb. That y'all liked eachothers this proves it! Robin said smiling. No.. Max just had something in her lips and I got it off!! I said. Yeah you got it off with ur lips? Robin asked sarcastically. Me and Max were both quiet. Alright Im going to sleep goodnight lovers! Continue! Robin said smiling as she shut the door. We heard her laughing still a while. Max put her hands aroung me and put my head in her chest. You know El if you ever feel like you need help with anything just call me or say I promise I will help the best I can, And I know i have said this before too but you dont need to be alone with your feelings ever and I mean it. What you told us today was some tough things, nobody survives alone with those things..Max said tearing up a little. I broke down totally.

Max's pov:
The brunette girl broke down on my hands. she started crying so much. Hey El dont it's okay. I said while my voice broke. But I dont wa.. wanna be a burden to you and I know you have things going too on life.. El said crying. El love I dont care if i have things going in my life, You will always be number one. Now tell me what is happening because I wanna help you. I said crying and holding her tightly. W.. Well when I was at lab papa sexual assaulted me.. Like she made me change infront of her and then he came into my room and.. El said and then she started crying even more and more. Im sorry.. I just.. I dont like talking about this.. El said. You dont need to be sorry I promise. And I know it hurts and its hard but please just get all your pain out. I said crying too. So when she came into my room.. he just took my clothes off without me wanting and uh he.. raped me. El said crying. Im so so so sorry El I cant belive what your going trough. I promise I would never do that to you. I said crying. I know. I just I dont know it left ofcourse trauma because he did it so many times you know.. El said as she wasnt crying that much. HE DID IT MORE THAN ONCE? I asked shocked and worrying that El is ok. Yeah he did it many times a week.. El said breaking again. Oh my god im so sorry baby.. I said crying and hugging her tighter when she cried her head in my chest. And uh.. You know how Mike sometimes wanted to come to the bathroom w-with me.. El said crying. Yes.. I said crying too. He um. He made me undress my pants infront of him and sometimes even my shirt.. Then he touched me yk where. El said crying her eyes out. He never raped me luckily but It wasnt nice.. El said crying. El you have to tell Nancy about this. Or someone who can stop him please. I said crying. Robin knocked on the door. Hey y'all r ok- Hey why y'all crying??!! Robin asked panicking as she came to us. I told her all about Brenner and Mike. Robin just looked at el and rubbed her hand quietly when tears came into her eyes too. I.. I promise i'll talk to Nancy and I promise if Mike ever does anything like that again i'll kill him. Robin said crying a little. I dont think she wanted to break down. You know what. Y'all wont go school tomorrow. Y'all can spend the hole day in here And heal much as you can and Max you can talk to the boys about El's- About the school works. Robin said as she went to call the teachers. Thank you Robin. I said. El had stopped crying and had fell asleep. I think its because she cried so much. El love are you asleep? I asked whispering. No Im not but Im tired. El said quietly. Then we will go sleep. I said. Okay do you want me to move.. El asked half asleep. Ofcourse not. goodnight baby. I said kissing her forehead. I brushed her hair with my fingers for awhile because I know El likes when I do it. Robin came in. Is El asleep? She asked whispering. El.. Baby are you asleep?? I asked. No answer. I think she is. I said whispering. Okay your teachers answered and said its okay to y'all be out if school tomorrow. And remember call the boys after school to make El's birthday. Robin said winking. Oh shit I have to buy my gift to her! I said whispering. Anyway goodnight im so tired. I said. Night red. Robin said smiling sweetly.

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