HeaL Me...( A STORY ABOUT ADDICTION AND SALVATION)

New Yizhan SS--"Heal Me" Chapter-1--Tormented Redemption--!

Tormented Redemption

Chapter 1

Drip...drip....drip...drip...

The slow sound of dripping water caused Lan Zhan to pull a pillow over his head. Usually, the sound of peppering rain eased him into a state of sleep. However, tonight it only beat against his eardrum causing him to have a headache. How could a simple drop of water be so loud inside his safe, secure bedroom when the thunderstorm had raged outside?

He supposed it was due to the dream that his senses were heightened enough to let the drops of water against his gutter aggravate him so much.

Lan Zhan had the blasted dream again only hours before. The dream that at one time he had lived to have now became his nightmare. The dream tormented him with jeering of the things he could not have due to ignorance and self preservation but mostly due to unworthiness.

His fingers clenched around his pillow so tightly that his knuckles whitened. The cocoon , that he was desperately trying to make around his head with the feather filled rectangle, was doing no good. He still heard the metal pinging with the last droplets of a past storm.

Lan Zhan closed his eyes tightly trying desperately to rid himself of the sound of the droplets. For some odd reason that sound was a reminder of his personal torment that barraged him daily. He tried to think of his current girlfriend's face. He tried to desire touching her peachy cream coloured skin. However, when he envisioned his fingers caressing a female body, they scraped across one particular alabaster skin. Lan Wangji cursed himself for it.

His first kiss with his girlfriend, Cheng Liu, hadn't even elicited desire. He thought perhaps it was her innocence of not knowing how to kiss. There was no softness of lips but a bombardment of an open mouth with a forced tongue. Lan Zhan gagged. Literally, he gagged. However, Cheng Liu thought the kiss was magical. After that, Lan Zhan tried his best not to endure too many of her magical kisses.

When he found out that Cheng had kissed more boys than Wei Ying, he was shocked. Only three boys had endured her kisses before him.

Wei Ying had kissed only Sarita and Lan Zhan. But Cheng Liu had kissed four. In what world would such a thing happen but in Lan Zhan's Twisted world?

Poor Shefeng was one of them. Lan Zhan was sure the boy was scarred for life thinking that is how kisses were supposed to be. He hoped that Andie had rid Shefeng of the memory of that kiss. Then there was Kyl. Lan Zhan was sure that Kyl wasn't interested in kissing but what it would lead to. With his wantings, it did lead to that quickly. Sex was kind of the goal for most young boys. But in Lan Zhan's case with Cheng Liu, never. Eww. He thought.

Then there was stephan. Lan Zhan would have to excuse that boy. He had been in states for over a year. Any female's kisses would be taken by most boys. Which was also a juxtaposition for Wangji. He was rather picky about who he'd kiss first after his adolescent had passed. That plan didn't disappoint Lan Zhan either. Wei Ying was well worth the pursuit and the wait. Too bad Stephen ended up being Lan Zhan's and Cheng Liu's half brother and crazy. Maybe he'd have kept Cheng Liu happy so Lan Zhan didn't have to.

Wangji rolled around again trying to find a comfortable position to acquire much needed sleep. He hadn't slept well since his father died at his own uncle's hands no less.

Lan Zhan's insomnia only escalated when he started dating Cheng Liu. With dating Cheng, at least both her and Wei Ying would be happy. That was his main goal after all. To make Cheng and Wei happy.