HeaL Me...( A STORY ABOUT ADDICTION AND SALVATION)

CHAPTER 17-- Feeling ONE In Mind, Body & Soul...!!

Chapter 17

Feeling One - In Mind , Body and Soul...!

"I almost wish I had cancer. Then I'd either beat it or die from it. But my disease, even if successfully treated, will never go away. And it might not kill me. But it will hang over me like the blade of a guillotine; more threatening inert than if the blade suddenly slips and mercifully turns out my lights. This is my war to end all wars."

―William Cope Moyers

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Lan Wangji decided to take a walk. He wanted to clear his mind of watching Wei Ying and Chingu being all friendly. He wanted Wei happy. He admitted that to himself. But he wanted this weekend to be about them before reality came back into play. He also wanted to forget the drug that waited at his house for him.

Could he actually be addicted? Beyond mentally, was something physically happening to him? He wasn't sure. But he was sure about one thing. He was craving the drugs more than he ever had before.

Wangji's inhibitions stopped just as quickly as they came with the thoughts of escaping reality with pills. Reality was good at the moment. It had to be physical now. The pills remained in his blood in little doses. Lang Wangji knew he had taken excessively of them trying to get the same high that the one time shooting up gave him. It was starting to frighten him how much he craved the feeling of the needle again.

Wei Ying watched as the rest of his friends busied themselves talking of superficial and mundane things. He watched as Liu tried to get Wangji's attention. And When Wangji ignored Liu's silly puckering and sticking out of her breasts, Liu sat her sights on getting Tang to notice her. They all seemed busy with having fun.

Wei Ying turned his eye from following Lan Zhan walking away to watching Miri and Shijun splashing frollicking in the water.

He wondered what it would be like to have a normal relationship blossoming as it seemed theirs was. He then watched as Lary lay on her belly as she chatted with Jixen. It seemed so easy for everyone but him and Lan Zhan. Liu was even having fun as Tang and she laughed about something.

"So, I need some advice." Chingu interrupted Wei Ying's thoughts.

Wei turned to give Chingu his full attention. "And what advice do you need?"

"As you know, we leave tomorrow morning for youth camp. By the way, you're going to love it." Chingu reminded Wei Ying that her mother had paid for a week away with the youth group at church camp. "Anyway, you're going to meet this girl there named Summer. " Chingu stated as he glanced down at his large hands. "Summer is my dream girl. No one knows that by the way, not even her."

"Oh really." Wei Ying smiled broadly. He teased Chingu. "You've been flirting with me and you have a dream girl."

"Come on, Wei Ying. Lan Wangji and you are somewhere else on the spectrum of teen dating, love, or whatever. I get that. To be honest, I'd love to have tried to get to know you romantically but after today, no way. Lan Wangji has been eyeing me like he's ready to make me his next victim."

Chingu wished he hadn't put it that way. He hadn't considered how awful that would sound. "Sorry, that was uncalled for. I didn't mean to be so cruel."

"It's fine." Wei raked his hand through his hair. "I was teasing anyway. So about Summer. What can I give advice on?"

"How in the world did Lan Wangji get you to fall for him so hard?" Chingu breathed out exasperated. "I know he is equally infatuated with you. But I need your point of view. I know you can't say it from a girl's perspective but as a person in love, you can give me some advice. So I need your thoughts as I can see myself being with Summer, like Wangji is over you.