Dead to me // 13rw

The end of her

TW: Mentions of suicide

The next day, Hannah seemed so weird. She flinched whenever someone touched her and she was alway crying. My parents kept asking if she was ok but she said nothing.

We got to school and she went straight to Mr Porter's office. I went to go find Monty.
'Hi!'
'Y/n! I was thinking, we haven't actually been on a proper date.'
'Oh yeah, I haven't really thought about it!'
'Well, we are going on one tonight. I'll pick you up at 7!' He put his arm around me and we walked away.

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Hannah walked towards me crying. She stretched her arms out for a hug.
'Y/n.. I need you' I pushed her off and walked away.
She looked at me and walked out of school.

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At around 7, I was still getting ready. The doorbell rang and my parents yelled for me to come down. Shit. This wasn't how I planned on them meeting Monty.
'Y/n, there's someone down here for you!'
'Uh.. who?'
'He said his name is Montgomery De la Cruz!'

I walked downstairs and gave Monty a dirty look. I messaged him to wait in the car.
'Oh Monty, you were supposed to wait in the car.'
'Well I thought that it's time I meet my girlfriends parents!' He walked up to me and held out magnolias, my favourites.
'Ok, you've met them, we can go!' I pulled his arm and headed towards the door.
'Not so fast Y/n! You didn't tell us about...'
'Monty..'
'Monty! We want to get to know him before you go anywhere!'

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It had been an hour before my parents let me leave with Monty. They kept asking questions about his grades, his friends and his parents (which I quickly changed the subject of).
'Babe, I can't believe you didn't tell your parents about me!' He said to me in the car.
'Yeah well I didn't want this to happen. And you probably didn't tell your parents about me.'
'I don't speak to my parents but I told my sister about you!'
'Hannah knows about you. And I want to meet your sister one day.'
'Of course.'

We drove for about half an hour until I knew where we were going. We were going to the place Monty showed me the first time we kissed.

He parked his car near the edge of the cliff and took out a picnic blanket.
'Isn't it a bit late for a picnic?' I laughed.
'Never.' He brought out a basket with strawberries and sandwiches and cakes.
'Monty this is lovely.' I smiled. I was a bit nervous because it was my first ever date with him but it wasn't awkward at all. It never is with him.

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'Monty, thank you for everything. I love you.' I stared into his eyes. What if he didn't say it back? I was never the first to say 'I love you' in the relationship so I didn't know what to expect.
'I love you too Y/n.' He put his arm around me and I rested my head on his chest.

I just got a message from my mom saying I had to be home now.
'Monty, my mom wants me home now.'
'Ok, let's get going.'

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I said goodbye to Monty and walked inside.
'So.. how was it?' My mom said smiling.
'It was good! I told him I loved him.' I grinned.
'And did he say it back? Or do I need to go beat the shit out of him?'
'Andy! Of course he said it back!' My mom said, lightly hitting my dads shoulder.
'Yeah he did.' I walked upstairs and into the room.

I wanted to have a shower but Hannah was already in the bathroom. There was water all over the floor.
'Hannah! Hurry up I need a shower! And there's water all over the floor, what are you doing in there?' No answer.
'Hannah?' Silence.
'Ok I'm coming in.' I screamed. Hannah lay in the bathtub, lifeless. She had slit her wrists.

'MOM! DAD! HELP!' I bursted into tears and held Hannah in my arms.
'Hannah please. It.. It's ok! I'm here. You're fine. I love you. Come back.' My voice began to break and my tears fell onto her face. I knew she was upset but I didn't know she was suicidal. I need her. I love her.

'Oh my god! Hannah!' Mom ran towards us and collapsed on the floor next to me.
'Hannah, shh your ok. I'm here now. ANDY! CALL THE AMBULANCE! CALL 911! HURRY!' I held her hand and cried.

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I stayed in my room while Hannah's body was being taken out. I couldn't watch. I don't know what I'm going to do now. Without Hannah. I know I treated her like shit half the time but I loved her. I felt nothing except guilt. Guilty of killing Hannah. If I had been nicer maybe she would still be here.

Someone knocked on my bedroom door and I saw Monty standing there.
'Your parents called. Y/n I'm so sorry.' I ran to him and hugged him. He just let me cry into his chest.
'She's gone Monty. She's gone..'