The King's Gamma (#Wattys2024)

Short update

Hi guys, so I'm posting this to both The King's Gamma and From Vicky to Lustris.

I tried updating on my wall, but it was too long even after removing sections several times.

Feel free to skip over this. But for those with questions:

I have been battling with severe depression for the past 3 to 4 years. I can't quite remember where, how, or why it started, but several factors went into worsening my mental health.

I've also recently been diagnosed with ADHD, at the ripe age of 28.

My most honest opinion: the meds help, but understanding myself is helping more. I'm not here to give you a sob story. It's not my style. Though secretly, I am insecure enough to appreciate any kindness shown and take it personally.

As I said in a previous update, I was also pregnant and had my son last year. It was the worst pregnancy out of the 3 as I struggled with pelvic girdle pain and could barely stand without experiencing excruciating pain in my lower back and abdomen. My spine also often clicked in and out of place. There is no other way to describe it.

I had food aversion so bad that I stopped gaining weight due to not eating for at least month 4 to 7 of the pregnancy. I could barely tolerate the smell of meat overall. Much less the taste. To describe it, it would be baked, cooked, boiled or whatever else you can think of to the point where the food is so done the meat would jump into your plate on its own, and it would still taste raw to me.

Beef, I had no problem with on this, I love a good rare steak. But it happened with mutton, pork, chicken and even fish too. I eventually drove my husband nuts as I overfilled our plates with veggies as I couldn't eat anything else. Fun times.

Also, did you know that some men suffer pregnancy symptoms either with their partner or instead of their partner? Yeah, we both had severe heartburn and always at the exact same time. It's kind of funny to think about it now.

So, as for the patreon thing, I intended to set it up to gain a secondary income. But being in a depressive state for so long, I barely ever wrote anymore and began feeling guilty about charging anyone over something that I'm not even sure when I would continue.

I eventually stopped writing altogether for the better part of a year. Right now, I don't entirely have need for the extra income, but if you still want to support my dream of being a paid novelist and have suggestions to alternatives for patreon, I'm all ears. After all, I have 3 kids that I enjoy spoiling when I have the extra bit of cash laying around.

I am working on something else, but it is something I am considering publishing on Amazon. Now, this one could take me days to write or years, so this time I'm not making promises.

What I will say, though, is that I am trying to be more consistent in writing. I have Mondays and Tuesdays off since I work for a 24/7 call center as my main employment, (I can't say more due to my NDA contract with my employers), so technically they are my Saturday and Sunday. So, I will still try to write when I can and publish where and when I can. But again, not making promises. For now, I will keep these two along with Alpha Featherstone as free works. I may still revise them in the future and publish them through Amazon, too, but that just feels like a ton of work. 😅

Maybe one day.

About the plot lines and endings, honestly I have a vague idea of how I want FVTL to go, but I don't set these things in stone since even I'm often surprised with how the story goes, even though I'm the writer. TKG, on the other hand, will likely continue until I grow tired of thinking up new arcs.

I've also considered creating merch via Etsy or similar before, but as smart as I am at figuring stuff out, I'm still somewhat technologically challenged when it comes to certain things.

If you wanna help, feel free to pop me a message, I'm more than willing to pay or split profits.

I am currently working on chapter fifty nine of TKG and hoping to publish it within this week. Maybe one more but let's not expect big things, okay?

Enough ranting. I want to thank everyone who has been consistently waiting and responding to my updates, as far and wide as they have been. I often get a smile when I see a comment pop up, even if I don't respond, I see you.

I known for being one of those who read messages and remember a year later that I never responded and then I feel so guilty for not responding that I want to apologize but I don't Apologize either because I feel like too much of an ass about it.

If there is anything I missed or anything else you want to know, I will try to respond, so post them here --->

For now, I am going to bed since my electricity died an hour ago and I can't continue work. My phone is also charging with the ups we use for the fiber routers, so I have to leave it be so that I hopefully at least still have battery life left if the outage takes all day, again.

See you around my awesome little readers!