𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐘 | 𝐦. 𝐣𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬𝐨𝐧

11

Marlon's POV

"I don't know. I can't stop thinking about you for some reason."

I had told Tonya over the phone. I don't know why or how or even when the words came out of my mouth, but they did. I'm not even sure why I called Tonya so late, I just felt such a strong urge to. When I said what I did, the other side of the line was silent for a while so my anxiety slowly began to rise.

Maybe I shouldn't have said that. It does sound kind of weird now that I think about it, but there was no going back now. I wasn't lying when I said it either. It was like ever since she left my house, she's never left my mind. I mean, maybe I'm just missing her 'cause she's my best friend. It's perfectly normal to be unable to get your best friend out of your head at crazy times of the night, right..?

"What..?"

Tonya's soft voice interrupted my raging thoughts. She sounded just.. confused, not necessarily weirded out like I thought she'd be. I wasn't sure how much else to elaborate on my sentence because I wasn't even sure what I meant by it but I knew that it was true. "I just.. uh.. I really miss you right now," I said.

I didn't want to say 'for some reason' after my sentence again because it'd sound repetitive. I'm not sure why she'd even care about something like that or if she'd even notice, but right now, I found myself feeling a little self-conscious, overthinking everything I'm doing. I felt like I had to make sure my every move and word wasn't embarrassing, like I had to impress the popular girl in middle school or something.

"I miss you a lot, too," Tonya says back to me. It makes me involuntarily smile. Something about her makes me super happy. I mean, she always made me happy, but now it feels a little.. different? I don't know, I can't explain it. I'm just happy to be in this moment with her right now.

Tonya and I ended up talking for hours about everything. I eventually heard soft snores on the other end of the line, she must be asleep. "Goodnight, Ton," I whispered. I hesitated before saying my last few words to her, "I love you," before I put the phone back in its holder to hang up.

It was normal for us to say we loved each other to each other all the time. I mean, we're best friends, but for some reason, I felt hesitant because I didn't want her to hear me this time. I felt anxious and happy at the same time as those words left me. Why? I have no clue.. I just know although me and Tonya stayed up on the phone really late, I still had the best sleep of my life that night.