AGAIN

Tell Me That You Love Me Again (J)

I was so happy after meeting up with Perrie, all these years I liked to pretend that I got over it but in truth I didn't, my love for Perrie never went away and possibly never will. Seeing her, speaking to her and hugging her only made me be sure of that.

I know she told me that I shouldn't feel guilty, but I certainly do. How did I not notice that my own girlfriend was being so horribly abused? When I think about it, there were several hints now. The hatred Perrie had for Cindy, the way Cindy treated me possibly because she was jealous of Perrie, just the thought of it makes me want to vomit. How Perrie was out every minute of the day to avoid being home alone with her.

There was a memory that struck me the most, the day Perrie overdosed. That day they were both alone and when I arrived Perrie was obviously shaken by something. Now I think I know what it was, I think it happened right before I got there. I remember seeing Perrie's skin all red and rough, she probably showered and rubbed her skin excessively in an attempt to feel clean before I arrived. I feel so stupid for not noticing and guilty because if I did, maybe I could've done something to stop it.

I'm just glad that she is happy now and that she is sober. If I loved spending time with Perrie in the past now I do even more. It feels like I am meeting a totally new person, but still with the characteristics that made me fall in love with her in the first place. I couldn't count on my fingers the amount of times she smiles every time we see each other, even though we had a lot of happy moments in our relationship, I don't think I've ever seen her as happy as I did now.

She wasn't alone in this, despite having found my happiness in me a long time ago, seeing her happy amped up my own happiness to a thousand percent. Zack keeps making fun of me, saying that I look like a schoolgirl with a crush, Holly is a little bit more sceptical of Perrie. She saw first hand all the hurt this relationship caused me, but if I'm ready to move on, she'll have to do it too.

It's been three weeks since Perrie and I first saw each other, we text or talk over the phone every day and we hung out lots of times already. Today, Perrie is taking me to her studio, I'm beyond proud that she fulfilled her dream, I remember when we were younger and she took her Polaroid camera everywhere, she always said she wanted a proper camera, but her dad couldn't afford it. I saved up the small allowance I had and bought it for her. She absolutely adored it, but as she went deeper into her addiction, she left her passion behind.

My phone made a noise and I realized it was a text message from Perrie.

"Look thought your window" It said. I poked my head outside and was faced with the hottest vision. Perrie was perched at her convertible Mustang wearing ripped jeans, a cropped Iron Maiden tank top that showed off her best assets, and there were a lot of them, combat books and sunglasses.

'Are you going to just stand there or are you coming with me?" She asked playfully, looking up at my window with a smirk on her lips. I could only smile back before almost running down and out of my building.

"Wow Pez, this is so beautiful. All of your pictures are amazing" I said, enchanted by her studio and every photo on display.

"You haven't seen my most beautiful work yet" she said with a smug smile.

"And what would that be, Miss Edwards?" I asked.

"Follow me" she said as we went through a corridor, what I saw on the end of it surprised me. There were three big pictures of me, I recognized the outfits I wore from times we went out together.

"Perrie sneaky Edwards, how did you do that without me seeing it?" I asked, unable to contain the biggest smile on my lips.

"Well, remember I told you I take my camera everywhere in case something beautiful catches my eye? I guess you were the most beautiful thing my eye caught" Perrie said it as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, and my heart instantly melted.

I have been thinking about us just like Perrie asked me to and now I'm sure I feel ready to try again with her. I walked closer to her and put my arms around her neck. She was expecting a hug, but instead I kissed her.

I forgot how good it felt to kiss her, how soft her lips were, how good she was with her tongue, how she was the perfect amount of rough and sweet. When we parted for air, I could see she was stunned.

"I thought about it Pez, and I would like very much to go on our 20th first date" I said playfully. If her smile was big before, now it was the biggest and brightest I've seen. She leaned in again, squeezing my waist and kissing me passionately.

"How scandalous Jade, kissing me before our first date" she joked.

"Maybe we could do something even more scandalous" I said suggestively, playing with her necklace.

Perrie obliged immediately, and soon enough, our tongues were moving together. Her hands slid across my back until she reached my ass and squeezed it. I let out a breath moan as she picked me up and guided me inside a room, that I assume it was her office, putting me on top of the desk. We kissed passionately with our hands roaming around each other's bodies and my legs wrapped around her waist, Perrie gripping my thighs so firmly that I think her hand will be imprinted there.

She pulled me to the edge of the desk and all but ripped my panties off, thankfully I chose to wear a dress today. She got on her knees, putting my legs above her shoulder. Perrie started kissing my inner thighs before going to lick my folds, she licked and licked and when she pushed her tongue inside of me I couldn't do anything besides moan and push Perrie further into my pussy.

"Oh Perrie!" I moaned felling her tongue deep inside, licking every inch of me.

I guess I have forgotten how good she was, she pulled her tongue out, licking me again before taking my clit into her mouth, she sucked on it and made circular motions with her tongue. It didn't take long for me to reach my climax, and when I did, she drank everything I had to offer.

"Fuck!" I moaned breathlessly but didn't even give me time to recover.

She pulled my dress out of my body and kissed her way back up until she reached my mouth, we kissed until we needed air and could still taste myself in her.  She kissed down my neck, leaving hickeys along the way. She pulled my bra down and swirled her tongue around my nipples before taking them into her mouth while squeezing my breasts together.

She went up again to kiss me and I ran my hands down her abs, reaching for the button of her jeans. I got off the table and was prepared and eager to suck her, but she stopped me.

"You don't have to" she said

"I know, but I want to. But if you don't want it, then that's OK" I replied.

"It's just that it was the first thing she...you know" she said looking down and I understood what she meant. I remembered now that Perrie never let me do it either when we were together, it all made sense now. I wanted to kill that fucking bitch so bad for doing that to Perrie.

"It's OK babe. We won't do it" I said, wrapping my arms around her neck as she wrapped hers around my waist.

"I need to work on it, maybe one day I'll can" she said.

"Don't worry Pez, If you never feel ready to do it, it's fine. We'll never ever do anything you're not comfortable with"

"I want it to get better tho" she said, looking into my eyes. She was silently asking for my help.

"I'll help you get there, OK? But there's no need to rush" I said caressing her hair.

"OK" she nodded, "Thank you, Jade" she said sincerely with a smile.

"Thank you Pez, for coming back to me" I said, staring deeply in her clear ocean eyes.

"I would do it again and again" she replied before kissing me.