(Slow Update)
This is my random thoughts and ideas becoming a story. It will include y/n with middle aged women, like Helena Bonham Carter, Olivia Coleman, Emma Thompson, Meryl Streep and other I love.. As these stories come from my random thoughts...
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"What happened to you these days?" "Nothing! Drop that topic, please. I have no energy for that." "No, I can't. I need to know. Something is bothering you. So you need to open up that we can fixed it." "I said drop that!" "NO! Please, Y/N... I can't stand seeing you suffering." "I'm happy, not suffering!" "Y/N.." "Please , Momm- Hel .... Not now.." Helena looked at the girl into her dull eyes. This is the sign she really needed help. Y/N called Helena "momma" only when she was upset, sad or when she needed a mother figure. "Something is really bothering you, isn't it?" Y/N locked her gaze at the ground when her bottom lip was trapped between her teeth. Her eyes were swelling up from the tears. "Y/N!?" "I'M SCARED! OKAY? I'm scared. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SCARED OF. I'M SCARED OF EVERYTHING! I'M SCARED OF DISAPPOINTING YOU.. I'M S-SCARED OF I'M- I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I'M AFRAID. I'M TRYING SO HARD TO BE NORMAL LIKE I WAS. A GIRL WHO IS ACTIVE, CREATIVE, AMBITIOUS AND TRYING SO HARD.... AND... AND HAPPY. I'M SO SCARED THAT I'M NOT LOVED. BECAUSE I AM NOT THE SAME ANYMORE... I'M LYING THE WHOLE TIME! EVERY BODY THINKS I KEEP MOVING. IT'S A LIE. IT'S FAKING... "
Y/N sobbed while her trembled body was getting weak, slowly collapsed on the floor, kneeling, covering her face with her hands. Helena looked at her poor girl with pairs of glossy eyes. She'd never known Y/N was feeling like this. She's so much in pain as seeing the girl in this state. She had believed that Y/N was still moving even though she had been this bad case. She's wrong. The older woman moved closer to the sobbing girl and gently embraced her. Her eyes were wet from the tears. She held the girl in her arms and soothed the girl.
"I-I'm lost, Hel. I'm lost. I never wanted to be like this. I'm trying to be enough but I'm never enough. I don't even know if I had a dream. I'm so sorry to disappoint you. I'm so so sorry." "Shhhh..... You don't disappoint me. You are loved, darling. You're loved. And you're enough. You are more than enough. I know how hard you try. I know how tired you are. Everything is gonna be fine. I promise. I'm always here for you. Momma is always here for you." Y/N shook her head repeatedly against Helena's chest. "I'm so sorry, Momma... I'm so so sorry.." "Shhh... It's okay, darling. It's okay. You don't need to apologize for anything."
Y/N continued sobbing as a lot of things she had hidden were opened up. She couldn't stop it. Even though her mind was blank, her eyes were still letting go lots of tears from her beautiful eyes continuously. Helena hummed a random song to coo the girl, rocking her in her arms. Y/N running mind was stopped by the angelic voice of her love of her life. Her cries were slowly switching to sniffles. She positioned herself in a comfortable position and snuggled up to Helena. Y/N tried to meet her momma's heart beats with her own. She felt getting peaceful, so was her breathing. Her eyelids were getting heavy as they had to work a lot earlier. The vibrations because of the lullaby, the sensation of running soft fingers through her hair and the steady pace of heart beating gently sent Y/N into the slumber.
Helena took the girl and placed her on the bed gently. Then, Helena positioned herself in the usual place she slept after turning off the light nearby Y/N. She laid against the headboard and started reading it. After about half an hour, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at the girl, who was sleeping, with sympathy. She saw the girl's face was covered with the dry lines of tears. Her eyes were puffy. She's so worn out. It's so sad to see her happy pill was in pain.
"I'm sorry I didn't notice that, love." She whispered. Helena patted Y/N's head and kissed her cheek and temple before lying down on the bed. She turned to Y/N and spooned her from behind. Not too long, she went the dreamland, joining her little girl.
words count: 716
started date: 26/May/2023 (15:30) ended date: 26/May/2023 (22:50)
A.N -It's Helena's Birthday..💗✨ Happy Birthday to my one and only who deserves the best of the best. Thank you so much for being Helena. -Thank you all of the readers who read my imperfections with love, kindness and patience. -10 of my drafts are gonna hit me as I don't finish them and write a completely new one.
