Fourth did not see any hope on his marriage with Gemini. He think if Pa becomes better within this year surely he will revoke this marriage. It’s his plan in the first place after all.
Gemini kindness can’t buy him this time. Who knows this guy just want him because he is used having Fourth in his life. Fourth find it very hard to accept him this time.
Fourth agreed marrying Gemini because Pa personally talks to him, sincerely asking Fourth giving his son a chance to redeem himself. Pa last wish wanting Gemini and him unite before he passed away.
Fourth got scared when Pa mentioned about death, he's not ready loosing the guy, thus even he knew it was impossible for him to marry Gemini, he agreed with Pa.
One thing Fourth done right by being honest with Pa telling him earlier that he will leave him if his heart still closed for his son. Pa understand, thanking him because he knew it was not easy for Fourth.
Fourth not that selfish, he never forget the good deeds his Pa and Ma have done to him. They’re giving child support to his uncle to raise him, pay for his studies and everything. Even Fourth get scholarship from Ma foundation
They never neglect him, he received the same treatment as their own son. Fourth can lives comfortably even though he’s an orphan thanks to them.
Fourth have been married for two months yet he still did not see an improvement of their relationship. He knew Gemini tried hard to win him still, Fourth didn’t feel anything.
Fourth witnes all of his effort, he is not blind, it's just Fourth cannot force himself accepting him.
One thing for sure, Fourth is afraid Gemini will hurt him again, past experience gave him trauma.
It’s really hard moving on. They basically spending rest of thier life together, in a blink of eyes, he lost Gemini whom he loved whole hearted. From loves, Gemini turns hating him for being exist.
He completely stop remembering the past, everything about bad things and learn dealing the loss. What's not belong to him, let them go. There's no turning back.
Fourth stop blaming , stop asking why it's happened. What’s have done already done, it's over. He take it as a life lesson. He stop caring how many people Gemini met after him, doesn’t even bother how he live after they’re separating.
"Once a cheater forever a cheater." Fourth laugh, he agreed with the statement. He have a trust issue with Gemini, how can he built relationship if he still have a doubt.
It's his choice to cheat on him. Fourth consider Gemini have choosen what he wanted, Gemini doesn't want him anymore. Hes not dumb fighting with the others because of him.
“What are you doing?” Speaking of the devil, Gemini stand beside Fourth kissing the top of his head. He embrace Fourth head to his stomach, missing this little creature so much.
“Nothing.” Fourth whose sitting quietly at the gazebo breaking off his body from him.
"How long have you been back?." Asked Fourth, realizing he's staying outside for too long.
"Not long, you're not in our room so I decided to find you." It's not difficult to find his husband. Fourth always spending his time at the garden, it's his favourite place to heal.
“Are you free tomorrow?.”
“Kind off.” He have nothing to do tomorrow. He usually spent his time studying during his off day.
“Mark invite us to hang out at his home tomorrow evening, wanna go?”
“Which home?.” How many houses that guy own.
“His new condo, it’s house warming party so his other friends will come as well.” Gemini inform Fourth earlier, he knew an introvert like him usually dislike to attend event like this.
“I’ll pass, not going.”
“Then I inform him we’re not going.” Gemini quickly typing on his smart phone replying his friend.
“You can go if you want, don’t mind me.” Fourth said, doesn’t really care if Gemini going. Gemini widely known as social butterfly unlike him.
“I’m not going if you’re not.”
“Suit yourself.” Fourth rolled his eyes, Gemini always like this, clingy for no reason.
“When can you take your leave?” Gemini take a sit beside him asking.
“Why?”
“Let’s go travelling with Ma and Pa.”
“This year I’m not free.” Fourth struggling finishing his study, he have seven months left to complete his training and research before going back to UK.
“Then, how about next year?”
“See it first.” Fourth answer short.
"It's hard to be a doctor's spouse. You always busy, don't have time for me." He whines without any ill intention.
"Why others can make time not you?." Gemini added his complaint. Not conscious his word tear Fourth wounded heart.
Last time one of the reason Gemini breaking off their relationship because Fourth were busy. Fourt felt like a pang in his heart recalling those time.
"We're not others. Why comparing ours to them?." Fourth asked back, raising his voice. He hate being compared because he knew he's always lacking.
"Fourth, I...I.." Gemini suttering. This is the first time Fourth get mad.
"What is your problem if I don't have time for you? You want a divorce? Go ahead I'm not stoping you." Fourth irritated with what Gemini have said to him, it wasn't funny at all.
"Fourth, it's not what I mean. I'm sorry for being insensitive."
"If sorry can buy everything, surely there's no a bad people exist."
"So you're saying I am bad? Fourth don't take my word seriously. I didn't mean it at all."
"You never joking around, since when you know how to? If you think I'm bored just divorce me."
"Fourth, I'm not going to argue with you. Sorry if I annoyed you, we talk after you calm down." Gemini stand up leaving him. Fourth not being reasonable now, annoyed for no reason.
Gemini afraid if he stay longer with him he will do something stupid, saying a wrong things again. He better leave him alone, Fourth clearly not in good mood. He will reconcile with him later.
