Alexis (Jalex ~ Transgender AU)

Prologue.

Alex's P.O.V

I didn't know what to think of myself, a freak? That's how I feel. I hated myself. I was everything that I didn't want to be. I looked at girls the way the average teenage boy wouldn't. I desired to be everything they were. Honestly, I've always looked at them differently, even at a younger age, I wanted to be the opposite sex. Deep down I believe that I'm simply just a girl stuck in a boy's body, unfortunetly it just very hard to express myself.

my parents are very.. Not straightforward. They don't understand me. Thats why I don't tell them about how I feel. The only person who truly knows how I feel is my best friend, Tay. Me and Tay don't actually have other friends, we are all that each other has. I admired her too, she was beautiful and a lot of the time It upset how I could never be like that. I could never truly be who I want to be. I couldn't be beautiful.

Whenever my parents leave the house, I am free to be myself. I do everything I can to be, or at least try and look, female. I shave all my body hair, put a little makeup on and I even secretly have a few of Tay's dresses. I've actually became quite good at doing my makeup now, I guess I'm just used to it. I'd flatten out my hair a bit and then admire myself in the mirror. Smoothing out the thin, lace black dress. I was me. Everytime that I would do this I felt like myself. But, a normal 17 year old shouldn't be acting like this, should they?

Why couldn't I be who I wanted to be? Why is the world so crule and hateful? What does a persons sex really have to do with anything? I wanted to freely dress up like this and still live my day to day life, wearing these dresses and having makeup on makes me happy, and even more confident. However, I don't think that coming to school as a girl would be the best choice. I already get made fun of daily because of my sexuality, how the hell would they act if they seen me as, well, truly me. How would my parents react? How would the community act? Why should I be scared of being myself.

I'm not Alex Gaskarth, a biological male. I'm Alexis and I'm a girl.

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Oooh! This is just a short introduction to my story, Alexis. and a little look into Alex's life. I hope you enjoy the actual story when it comes out, which probably won't be long. Thanks for reading! :)