𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑.

Ch. 5

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disbelief

devastated

confusion

all those three emotions came crashing your heart in just a matter of second the time she finished spouting out the word she's been keeping.

how could she?

after months of being together, showering each other with affections, of course the two of you would bicker but not at such complicated things like this.

this is the first time you're coming into a disagreement to her, not to mention, a big disagreement that results her into the decision you've been afraid of knowing or hear about.

"y-you can't possibly say that!"

"but that's what i've been wanting to tell you! just what do you think when im avoiding you for this whole time?!"

you're baffled, lost in your own train of thoughts recalling back the memory when she's avoiding you.

the cold glare she gave to you, just like the time you accidentally bumped into her. and it was your first time meeting her.

you grip on your shirt tightly, trying to fight back the urge to yell. after what you've done to her, and this is how she's repaying you back? by breaking up with you over something that doesn't make any sense to you?

"you're not making any sense... i don't understand what do you mean! how come im holding you back?"

"i told you that didn't i? you're not an artist, of course you won't get what i mean! you don't know how i feel!"

"then tell me! let me understand! and i told you communication is key!" you argue back, veins bulging out of your neck. you're getting tired of the constant yelling, trying to stand with your own point.

at this point both of you won't be able to convince each other. ena is occupied with the thought of successing, while you're trying to maintain your relationship with her.

that's right. one is fighting for each other's sake, while one is fighting for her own selfish desire. what she's thinking right now, isn't about you, but herself.

she desires for her art to be acknowledge by people, and she thinks she doesn't need your acknowledgement.

ena is stubborn, and selfish.

trying to convince her that you're not stopping her on whatever she's doing is going to be hard. and impossible if it's included with her desire.

both of you don't understand each other's feeling about this. heck ena's got something way more important to worry about rather than worry about your feelings toward her.

in short, she's ignorant and oblivious.

love is complicated, it brings two people together. everyone gets to play a part of it, but not everyone is destinied to be with each other.

in this case, you and ena,

is not meant for each other.

you're not a man who resort violence, nor a man who force his own way to others.

"im just fighting for our relationship, you're fighting to reach your dream..." you spoke and slowly walk toward the door.

"how selfish of me. your dream is probably something you've been trying to achieve." huffing loudly, you turn around and walk to her direction, standing in front of her. she's looking at you with teary eyed, her breathing still heavy.

"... you're right. im sorry, for not noticing sooner. i should have known better."

"take care then. and thank you, for all." sending her a sad smile, you give her one last pat on the head.

she had always loved that.

"we're over now."

and that, concludes your love story with her. it leaves you a scar on the heart. although it also leaves you happy memories, you still can't accept the fact that it ended this way.

what happened in the past, is not going to be your concern from now on.

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but what about ena?

she's in daze, how come you're still being gentle with her after she slapped you, shouted at you.

it won't take long till regret comes and hit like a truck. she might not have her heart broken right now, but somewhere near the future, she might experience it.
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