𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑.

Ch. 6

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you sat on your bed, not bothering to take off your wet uniform, staring into the night sky longingly as if you have nothing better to do.

your hand reach upward to the moonlight, as if you're trying to grasp it, yet you couldn't because it's impossible.

just like how you think you've successfully acquire her trust and put them into you. you thought that she had made you her safe place. but turns out something went wrong. you don't know what is it, what's the cause to it to happen.

but you know for a fact that you failed on keeping someone precious to you. and that failure ought you to change to be better.

"ugh, what's this musty smell coming from... [name]! i told you to take a shower and change! you're going to use that uniform for tomorrow right?" your mom complained after opening the door, with the typical hand on her hips like every mother would always do to scold their kids.

"will do later."

"there's no later. come on out and get changed, young man. or else you're going to sleep on the floor 'cause the bed's wet."

you sighs, running your hand through your hair and nods at her. she closed your door as you get ready for a long shower, feeling like you deserve one right now.

you get in, turning on the shower and sigh again for the countless times in a day. looking down, you ponder...

what did i do wrong?
did i upset her?
maybe she thinks my compliments are sarcasm

and many more else.

you're way too deep in your train of thoughts, you did not notice a single tear rolling down, but soon it was overwhelmed with the warm shower hitting your skin.

her reasoning doesn't make sense to you, anyone would know that you're just being supportive, not the other way around.

reminiscing the time, where you would always spend your night with her, ended up on you staying over her house for a day. sometimes talking with each other to sleep, although you were awake in the middle of the night where she's on her computer screen, talking to someone.

you stop pondering and realizes.

that someone...

you frown heavily, holding your tightening chest. you thought she's talking to someone other than you behind your back, and is probably the reason why she's avoiding you.

how lucky... they get to keep her up all night. i wonder if they ever met each other...

you wipe your face with a towel, sighing again. today has been a tiring day for you. laying down on your bed, you don't mind the lights still turned on and close your eyes in attempt to forget everything that happened in this eventful day.

meanwhile on the other side, the girl has been staring at her screen, scribbling and sketching nonstop on her tablet as if she's trying to catch up.

"all because of you... i didn't get to finish this piece..." she grits her teeth, harshly sliding her pen on the tablet, giving her hardest to not dissapoint others. now that you're not in her care anymore, she's coming back to her own self.

still the same stubborn and selfish girl anyone knows, it's not ena if she's not angry like almost all the time. but it got worse than anyone could think.

if only i realized sooner...

the both of you thought at the same time,

it's not worth fighting for you..!

she puts her pen down beside her drawing tablet, breathing in and out hard as if she just finished a tiring sport, her finger tips are red from gripping her pen too tight.

but at least she finished her drawing.

the embodiment of anger

although it's just a messy sketch, anyone can tell the message behind it. messy, no one's in the right mind to know what it means but from the thick lines with sharp ends, they know she's angry.

on the other hand, you can't fall asleep. you think it's still too early to fall asleep, as you're always awake at this kind of time and will also be calling her, or be over her house for the night.

but now everything seems different, although you're just getting back to your normal life,

spending the night, alone.

not hearing her voice.

and not wishing each other good nights.

it feels foreign to you.

but why? why do you feel like this? everything is always like this way before you met her. yet why?

what's the reason behind your feelings?

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laying there you realize.

you used to be lonely, no one to talk to everyday. no one to laugh with everyday, and no one to wake up for. it feels like a void of loneliness is within you. and ena came to fill that void of loneliness. then when she left, you're left with a hole inside without it's occupier. and that made you lonely. her dissapearance in your lonely void, made you miss her. it's crying for her, wanting her to not go and stay inside your void even though your mouth and brain had told her that you're letting her go.

the void is getting way too attached of the girl's presence

she's your first friend, first love. your first to everything. everyone have a hard time letting go of their first love. they get too attached to them, and you, are way too attached to her. just like the others would.

your emotion gets the best of you. you cried, eyes leaking hot salty tears. you wipe your tears and sobs softly, covering your face with a pillow and proceeds to cry even more.

i can't believe... that a girl can make me cry like this...
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this took a friggin long time to write because i've never experienced a break up lmaoaoao #maidenlessgang

also, seems like some of my older books are going to come back (that's what he said to the yandere reader book and then never update it 🤓🤓) hhhhh my bad guis im just. STUCK. HELP I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AFTER THE READER DIE it's fine i got this under control don't worry (i don't lol help)