Hello Melody.....Goodbye Harmony.

Hello Melody....(3).

                                                               >>>I'm afraid<<<

 

I'm afraid.

A lot of things terrify me. Spiders, clowns, confrontations and litchis , those blood suckers have no mercy and are just hunters.

Anyway, a lot scares me like I've said but the biggest one is seeing you. I'm afraid to see you, there, I've said it. You're way too small I imagine and are the final kick , to knock me into my new reality.

I can't say I hate you, I can't say I love you...I just know you.

I get tired from just thinking about you. Oh look what you've done to me. I'm speaking incoherent words, I'm dazed most of the time and eat like nobodies business, I'm lazy and for some reason I find myself satisfied, watching cooking shows.

One thing people should know is, I don't like cooking shows. Why you ask, well, I can't cook to save my life. A decent meal maybe but the rest of the fancy stuff, nope, I can't .

Like I said, I'm afraid of a lot of things but the biggest one..........

Oh I'm being called downstairs, we have an appointment.

Oh my boyfriend has entered into my room, he looks so cute but yummy, I want to jump his bones. Hey, don't blame me, blame it on the hormones, they are too high to make sense of my disturbing thoughts.

I love him, I really do. I'm happy he's here with me, it makes things easier and quite relieving to know I'm not going through this alone. I might still have mixed feelings about you but I must say, you have done something that none of us at home wouldn't have achieved. You brought my parents closer, in a ' we're co parenting with one goal in mind,' ' looking after our children and being there for them, not as individuals but together.'

Yep, my siblings and I were totally shocked, the constant cat and dog fights have ceased to still waters. It's a miracle. You've brought a miracle and for that, I'm thankful.

Okay, I should leave now.