is this what falling in love feels like?

part 7

A/N : okay this one's kinda long and i must apologise lmao anyway hope you guys enjoy!! :)

hes the first guy to ever make me feel like this
i still remember the day he sealed our love with something as simple as a kiss
yet i felt so special
of course i did
considering how much i was traumatised as a kid
i know someday i'll miss
the laughs we shared,
how much he cared,
the tears he wiped away,
every time i didn't seem to be okay
i know i'll miss it
of course i will
even if he doesn't love me i promise you i will,
till my very last breath
i know i'm too young to feel like this
but he was the first one to miss,
my smile which i always thought to be ugly
he always looks so snuggly
i wish i could wrap myself in his arms and never let go
my mind screams no
i tell myself not to get so attached
because this has to be a bad match
why would the cute guy fall for the worthless girl?
doesn't seem possible,
not at all
he's so devilishly handsome and tall
whereas i'm not pretty enough and small
so i stay up at night and overthink about how long this would last,
i know that for him this would someday become a laughable past
all of my friendships tend
to come to a heartbreaking end
which is why i could never believe
that he would ever want to be with me
i know this moment is one i'd never stop reminiscing
i can never stop thinking about all the kissing
i just hope that one day you won't be dissing
to your friends or your new girlfriend about how stupid i was to think that you'd love me back
i always wonder what it is that i lack