is this what falling in love feels like?

part 13

his soul is so pretty
i hope he didn't love me out of pity
im filled with endless flaws
i don't know what he ever saw
the thought of him is all that consumes my mind
i know for a fact that he's blind
because i'm not pretty, not at all
there is nothing good about me which i could recall
i wish i could be the girl he deserves
who has a beautiful face and exquisite curves
a voice so enchanting, it makes you turn into a bundle of nerves
i know i could never be any of that
i'll always be fat
no matter how hard i try
in the end i only want to die
i'm not beautiful and you cannot deny
if you tell me i am you'd only be telling me a lie
seeing myself in the mirror makes me cry
i know looks aren't all that you're searching for
which is why it's you that i adore
but i still wish i could be enough
because i know being with me must be so tough