is this what falling in love feels like?

part 24

i feel broken
every bit of my happiness stolen
she wears makeup and slutty clothes
and you both used to have your own inside jokes

im not as attractive
and my heart is still held captive
im not beautiful
just very pitiful

i wish i meant more
if you really think about it im ugly to the core

it's been 2 years now,
you'd think i would've healed
but my brain's sealed

i can't move on from this
i hope she drowns in her own piss
and if i left,
maybe you'd finally miss.