is this what falling in love feels like?

part 28

you go offline and silent
i wait all night and hope that tomorrow your love wont be so violent

your fingerprints are on my heart and soul
and quite honestly marriage was my only goal

not yours, i guess
and ever since that day i am a broken mess
one that can't be put back together,
i thought we were birds of a feather
guess it's just heartbreak weather

i used to be cautiously optimistic
and never really unrealistic
but that was before i met you
when i had never even felt butterflies let alone a whole zoo

you turned me into a dreamer,
but that only lasted until i had seen her

she is pretty like the ocean,
and she really makes me question your devotion

because no matter how loyal one could be,
there's no denying she is beautiful
more beautiful than i could ever be
in my eyes she is better, of course you could not see
how much that one little instance really meant to me.

i always knew i wouldn't be enough
i just didn't anticipate loving me would be this tough