Learning and Coping

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When I first began writing again, Mother said that it was the most pointless thing I could do with the endless time on my hands, that I should do something more productive. She never understood the value of words, or how much power they can have over others. Vale isn't very good with words, and she has always hated that there is one thing I can do that she can't. She hates it more than mother.

I have a lot of hope for when I finally get out of there, but it can be hard to hold on to those feelings. I like analyzing news articles when possible, so that maybe I can turn my attention towards writing for the news once I finally escape. That's just another thing that my mother thinks is ridiculous: my aspirations.

I think Mother locked me in my room because she cares, but as time passes, I realize that she is afraid of what could happen when she finally lets me out. She will finally be able see all the mistakes she has made with me and Vale. I hope she realizes we won't be coming back... Ever. I look forward to the day when she realizes she is the reason her daughters hate her. She is the reason Father left, the reason he killed himself. She is the sole reason for everything she hates and fears.

Posted: May 2018

Written by: VC