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Lo'ak

I rested my head down, throwing the covers across my body. The cool sheets pressed against my bare skin felt like a comforting way to end the day. I let my mind relax and body dig into the mattress- I was exhausted. I didn't even realize how truly worn out I was until this moment. Soon, my mind settled into a meditative state. Where my body was paralyzed though I was fully conscious. This hyper awareness didn't scare me, I don't even mind it. My body was getting the rest it needed with my brain was offline. All I had to do was survive, not thrive. How peaceful.

"Swoosh", a breeze passed over my body sending a chill through my spine. This sudden action caused an alert panic- danger. My head shot up only to be blinded by the light. My vision was compromised, though I still tried to see the figure standing in my door way. Squinting painfully I was able to make out a slim female in the door way.

" 'akhi hal yumkinuni 'ana 'anam huna alyawm kan mmtean (Brother can I sleep in here ? Today was... interesting)." Her words sounded sparse and strand. I knew it wasn't a threat, just one of my sisters.

" hal 'ant Kiri 'am tuk (Are you Kiri or Tuk) ?" I was honestly so lethargic I couldn't tell.

" bijidiyat liwak kam 'ant ghabiun sakhif (Seriously Lo'ak ? How fucking stupid are you) ?" Yup, that's Kiri all right. But why did she come to me ? She ALWAYS goes to Neteyam.

Just wanted to point out that their whole conversation was in Arabic but I didn't wanna translate it all. So keep that in mind !

"Sorry Kiri, sorry." I scooted my body over to the left so she could crawl in. Immediately she sat herself down glaring at me.

"What ?"

"Arn't you gunna ask me what's wrong ?"

"Well- I don't know. You always go to Neteyam so I'm not sure what to do..." Hearing the words come out my mouth I realized how pathetic and jealous they sounded.

"Well- I'm sorry. It's just... I don't know." Hearing her say this made the reality all that more real. Kiri and Tey were just closer- it's their nature.

"But why did you come to me ?"

"Oh ummm, I did something REALLY stupid and felt like coming to you." A small smirk surfaced as I lifted my body to a sitting position. Facing directly across from Kiri.

"What happened ?" Slowly, my arm reached around her shoulder pulling Kiri to rest her head on my knee. Intwining my fingers through her long hair I started to massage the scalp- seeing my father and brother do this a million times for her.

"No judgement ?"

"Of course not. Now what happened ?"

"During art i-i did somethin. Kinda weird somethin."

"It couldn't have been THAT bad sister. What did you scalp boobs on someone's work ? I bet they thought it was funny !" A small chuckle left my lips, I figured somethin kinda light could help break the barrier between us. Though as Kiri's eyes started to dart around the room, rapidly blinking to hold back her tears I knew she was in pain. "Hey, hey I'm sorry." Pulling her legs into a full body hug, I rapped my arms around her slowly rocking.

"No, it's not you." Tears started to pour down her face, leaving small droplets staining the comforter. I found my way to her back slowly rubbing up and down in hopes of calming Kiri. She gathered her body, took a deep slow breath out and started collecting her thoughts. I just stared at my sister looking from the outside in.

"Today at art I had a migraine. So I took the keys to go and lay down in Teys car b-but, Rotxo came with me-" The worse thoughts imaginable came to mind but I kept my full attention on her words. "- and so he came with me for SOME reason. And then-n we started talking and then smoking. And smoking some more- then I was high. And I can't remember most of the day and I feel shaky, sweaty, awful- I don't even know him. He's sooo annoying too !"

" Okay, okay. Hey it's alright. I know how you get with new things- well new things like this. It's okay sister." I knew that this wasn't that big of a deal, but for my sister things like this were hard on her. She always adjusted quickly, but you have to give her time.

Kiri started to nuzzle her body into mine. Slowly breathing, letting her mind start to relax. I still don't know why she came to me this time, but I'm great full that she did. Within minutes her heart beat was steady, I could her muscles go limp. Rolling over to my right, I laid with Kiri close to me. Entangled in my arms behind her back. We had always been a comforting family, many found it difficult to understand. Though, it was NEVER anything weird. Just are way of showing we cared about one another.

Closing my eyes once again, a contempt feeling fell over me. Kiri was always going to Tey or Dad or Mom or fuck even Tuk before me. I was always there to help, but she did seek me out. No one ever did. But not this time, this time my sister wanted MY help. Hu... it felt rewarding- strange.

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