Getting up was easier then normal, I felt well rested and energetic. Once my eyes sprung open I was met with my unconscious brother. I cautiously pushed the covers off my body, creeping off the mattress. My eyes were locked onto Tey as I walked around the bed and headed out the door.
As I carefully shut the bedroom entrance my body laid against my own door. Leaning on the solid piece of wood my head fell back hitting my neck. I slowly moved my head from side to side. Having one ear hit my shoulder and then the other. Though my energy was higher then normal it was unintentionally brought down by one thought: 'I'll have to see Rotxo tomorrow.' I let out a slight whine before pressing my body weight against the wood even harder, easily sliding down while pulling my knees towards my chest. My head dropped as I felt a chill run along my back. I allowed my eyes to shut as my thoughts started to disappear into the void.
" Hey are you okay?" The worried voice sounded familiar- homey and safe. I could tell they were close to me, their body heat radiating onto my skin.
My vision hadn't adjust quite yet to the amplified light. Everything was still quite hazy as my head hung low- still resting on my knees.
"Yeah I'm okay"
"Here baby girl let's get you up." Just by the nickname alone I knew it was my dad. He called me this ever since I could remember.
"Okay." I handed over my left side to my dad, using him to get up. The slight vision I did have already started to spin. My legs felt like jello underneath me- as if they could just give in at any moment.
My dad gave me a worried look before wrapping his arms around me- pulling me into a hug. My forehead was met to his chest as I breathed in the musky scent to his cologne. I gave him a small tap on the back to assure him I was okay now. He gave one last squeeze before pulling away. I followed him down the stairs and into are kitchen. My senses became more aware as I discovered my whole family scattered across the room.
"Hey sis, Tsireya invited us to the beach- wanna come ?" I turned around to find Lo'ak with a huge smile plastered onto his face, as if it was permanently set there. I could tell he was texting someone due to the phone placed right in front of him; along with a bowl of cereal. The milky liquid ran from his lips, down to his chin and onto the floor. He wiped away the substance before intensifying his gaze. Just waiting for my response.
"Who's gunna be there ?" I really wanted to ask if Rotxo would be there, but was worried the rest of my family (Ommi) would proceed with more questions.
"Well-" Lo'ak took a pause to shovel another spoonful into his mouth, still texting one handed to who I assumed was Tsireya. "Tsireya obviously, Aonung but he's got some surf thing so won't really be around, and then Rotxo."
I could feel my heart drop into my stomach. I knew it was coming but hearing the words out loud physically hurt me. I wonder if this is how Rotxo felt- upset, hurt, and at least for me even embarrassed. Embarrassed by my actions.
"When we leaving ?"
As Lo'ak opened his mouth to answer, Tey came around already prepared, "In like 30 min- their gunna meet us there before Ao has to go."
"Yup" Lo'aks reply sounded annoyed. I couldn't help but slightly chuckle before dragging myself up the stairs.
I scanned my bath suits trying to find one I could wear. Most of them were quite revealing- which already made me unsure of myself. Butterflies started to fill my stomach as I thought of Rotxo. I figured he would be cold towards me, which in all fairness is what I asked for. My train of thought returned towards my outfit- now what to wear ???
Reya💛🧚:
Kiri- "Hey what are u wearing ???"
Tsireya- "Oh I'll send u a photo."
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Kiri- "Oh that's cute ! See I have a lot of bikinis but wasn't sure if it was okay or not... but like if u are then I think it's fine right ???"
Tsireya- "Yeah don't stress ! Like wearing no cloths at the beach is apart of going to the beach. You'll be fine- & I'm sure Ro won't mind..."
Kiri- "Did he say anything ?"
Tsireya- "He's been a little nervous about today but hasn't said much. When I talked to him earlier he kinda just shut down."
Kiri- "oh"
Tsireya- "He gets like this tho. U just gutta let him work it out.", "But... on a happier note- what are u wearing ???"
Kiri- "I'll show u !", "It's reversible so I can do the cream side or the green side- I think I'll go with green today !"
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Tsireya- "Ur gunna look sooo sexy ! I'm telling u Ro won't be able to stop staring."
Kiri- "I don't even like Ro- just feel bad I hurt him. Tho I know about u & lo'ak..."
Tsireya- "ITS NOT LIKE THAT STOP ✋"
Kiri- "U BOTH WONT STOP TEXTING !!!", "😒😒😒"
Tsireya- "Yeah... maybe a little."
Kiri- "CALLED IT", "heheheh"
Satisfied with my response I threw my phone onto the bed. Instantly stinking deep in the sheets. I changed into my bikini and started to examine myself in the mirror. I didn't hate what I saw... which was weird. I felt somewhat confident in what I had. It was unsettling yet, a comforting feeling. To not hate every part of myself felt like something was missing.
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Srry if y'all don't like the outfits but I tried... 🫠 Outfits are hard okay !
