"Buzz, Buzz !" Stepping out of my house I could feel the vibrations going off. My phone was permanently set to do not disturb, however I changed the settings so a few people's texts or calls would go through. And one of those texts was from 'Spider'. A few days ago I met him through passing, in the halls, and somehow he befriended me. Though are 'relationship' was more friends with benefits then anything else- so I knew that I had to wait till no one could see my screen before opening the message.
"Buzz, Buzz !" Before I even left the drive way my eyes were glued to the screen- pressing the phone into my face. I started to feel gross and disgusting as my eyes saw the dick dripping with cum. It was truly a gross sight- with the skin slowly wrinkling and stretching as more and more came out. I quickly scrolled passed the short video and started typing a somewhat decent response:
Spider 🕷️:
Kiri- "Good to know what I'm working with 🫦" ,"But... I hope u last longer when I'm with u..."
Spider 🕷️- "As long as u can keep me entertained 😜"
Kiri- " Don't worry sexy", "I have a few ideas..."
Are texts continued throughout my car ride. I could hear my Dad drowning on and on about are behavior. Soon we arrived at the brunch spot, a pit started to fill in my stomach. The anxiety around food was always my least favorite part of the day. Without hesitation I reached into my purse and pulled out a few hemp gummies. Most days these were the only things that got me through without a complete breakdown.
"Okay look, I know that this is uncomfortable. I know you all would rather be sleeping but PLEASE just TRY and be normal. Not your normal but other peoples normal. Lo'ak no back talking, Neteyam no zoning out, and Kiri no crying... okay ?" After hearing my dads words I already could feel the tears forming. Without a response I pushed the door open- it didn't budged. My brothers turned towards me with a sorrow expression. I turned my gaze to look straight into my dads eyes, trying to burn a hole right through him. He slowly exhaled while unlocking the door. I begin texting Spider again- at least he didn't feel bad for me. I dove my thoughts into our texts, attempting to distract my mind from the disordered thoughts forming. I knew after a few minutes the gummies would take hold and I would feel nothing. Though, for right now my whole world was being consumed by a small cafe.
"Okay we got table 3, which is to the right over here." Mr. Kekao started to guide are families through a small walk way that led to a surprising large wooden table. The knot in my stomach had subsided, my emotions had been blocked. I only ever took enough to feel as if nothin mattered- my sweet spot of life. Slowly Lo'aks hand was placed barley touching my back, directing me towards a seat next to him. I could read the expression on his face, he wanted to make sure I was okay. I responded with a loving smile to let him know I wasn't going to panic. Throughout time whenever I ate out I would break down- in stores, restaurants, parks, wherever. Only to be left in pieces. Normally, the thought of my family looking after me like this would leave me with even more guilt then I already had- but not when I'm in my sweet spot. Once we were all seated small conversations started to form amongst are two families- but not me. I sat there feeling contempt just looking from the outside in.
(Seating arrangement ⬇️)
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"Hey Kiri." A soft voice spoke against my left ear. I turned my head to see Rotxo sitting right next to me. My head swung to the right as a gave a 'what the actual fuck' look to my younger brother. He shrugged his shoulders with a smirk plastered onto his face- I knew he planned this.
" I just wanna talk Kiri." Rotxo's voice was no more than a whisper, with are families being in such close proximity I knew we had to be discrete.
"Okay..."
"Why have you been ignoring me ? In art, at lunch, when I text you, even when I say hi during passing you just turn the other way... which doesn't even make sense cause then your late for class." His face drooped more and more as his words carried on. A small pain was forming in my heart, the gummies where not prepared for this.
"I just don't wanna be friends and thought you could take a hint."
"Okay- I get it !" I could tell his smile was fake, but at least he wasn't pushing. I scooch my chair an inch closer to brother and Rotxo did the same towards Tuk. Out of the corner of my eye I spotted her giggling with him. My heart began to speed up as a sudden high of energy high me. Before I could take action Lo'aks hand slightly shook me. Turning to him I noticed his hand was pointing toward something, or should I say someone.
"What would you like miss ?" A small girl asked me, the only thought that came to mind was 'how can I eat when she's so small- she'll just judge me... everyone here will'.
"Can I just have a fruit salad ?"
"Yes ! Is all the fruit in there okay ? No allergies ?"
"No I'm good !"
"K, sounds great !" The girl quickly scribbled on her note pad. I didn't even have to look towards my Ommi to know the look she was giving me- disappointment. Though no one else seemed to care.
While waiting for our food my phone began to buss more and more. I kept typing dry responses- wishing Spider could take the hint. Not before long our food arrived. Secretly, I was starving and couldn't wait. My dads head turned as the waiter left, once she was out of sight he slid me a mimosa. I mouthed a 'thank you' before taking a sip. The sweet but tangy drink sent my taste buds for a whirl wind. This was exactly what I needed.
Throughout brunch things seemed peaceful- no one fought or argued. Sadly, I couldn't help but just play with my food, but I had no problem chugging my drink and a few others.
"So Kiri how are things going at school, with your ex program?" I looked up once hearing my name, only to find Mrs. Kekao staring directly towards me. Everyone else's conversations came to a halt, waiting for my response.
"So far it hasn't been bad... but I've been busy."
"Oh yes Ro is ALWAYS working on school ! I'm sure you two have been able to relate to each other !"
Rotxo's eyes made contact with mine for a moment while I thought. The look on his face was of pure shock, while mine was of concern. To my luck Rotxo was able to answer far more quickly than I could.
" Yeah, somethin in common." Ronal seemed unsatisfied with his response but at least stop prying. By now the conversation had shifted to Aonung and Neteyam about college. So I was able to just sit back and focus on sexting spider. __________________________________ 1230 words
