𝐌𝐲 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐒𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫'𝐬 𝐇𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝

7.𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬

y/n pov

as I lay on the cold bed with dried-up tears on my face, I was so 𝒏𝒖𝒎𝒃..., just so done 

I wish I could just forget about him, and act like he's actually a 𝒄𝒓𝒖𝒆𝒍 guy who just hit me, but I know I can't let him go, I know deep down he's just 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒏 as well,

how stupid am I to convince myself about a person who doesn't care about me, but I still long to  hold onto his 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒕 with me, even though right now he's become someone I don't recognize,

 but knowing that he was nice to me in the past is just so 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒇𝒖𝒍 for me to let go

knowing that I bought this upon myself, knowing that this is all because of me, only if, only if that day-

there was an abrupt knock on my door that pulled me out of my deep thoughts

hyuri: madam! may I come in

y/n: please do..

I get up slowly although my legs were all shaky and wobbling because i was tired

hyuri: please don't get up, I'm here to apply this on your face

she said that with hint of guilt in her face

y/n: please don't mind what happened back there, I'm sure he had a reason

hyuri: sniff! I'm so sorry i couldn't help you miss, please punish me

y/n: it's ok-

hyuri : it's not! -i-am sorry, excuse my rudeness, it's just not okay to see you go through this, he was nice to the previous lady of the house, but it isn't 𝒇𝒂𝒊𝒓 that Master treats you this way  

y/n: but isn't this all because of me, i think if only I gave my word back there, maybe I had a chance to let go, I'm sorry to have made you guys go through all that

hyuri: please don't be sorry, you're not supposed to be the one saying sorry, its us, we all should get fired

y/n: it's okay, please hand me that cream ill apply it for myself, you take a break

hyuri: bu-

i reached out to take the tube from her hands , and so she did 

she bowed down and left 

and i laid on my bed with back on the same cold bed , my eyes fixed on the ceiling , not knowing what's even happening to me

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its been a couple of days since that happened, I haven't bathed, I haven't been able to eat as well, my head is all confused, i finally decided this is not okay 

I got down of the bed, not knowing what I was doing, I went straight in the bathroom and put my head under the shower head, I turned it on , and while cold water dripped down my wet hair and clothes, i just held my head onto the wall

looking at my feet that were drenched in water, i could feel my tears dripping down my body and into the drain 

y/n: hic! i don't want to hic! Be here, sniff! 

i slip down and hunch over my knees

y/n: please sniff! 

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i get out of the shower with still-wet clothes 

i rummage through my cupboard and one gown caught my attention, i slowly remove it from the hanger