𝐌𝐲 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐒𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫'𝐬 𝐇𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝

8.𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐬𝐭 (𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞)

i woke up today to a very drowsy morning, after what happened, he and I seemed to have become more distant than before, I mean, we were partially strangers to each other, to begin with, but now its more like oil and water

ive been having these instances in between the day, i feel very transparent, i knew i was being watched but there i see no one, i could be imagine things ,

 but even when im sleeping, my body would automatically get cold sweat,

 it was as if someone was beside my bedside table watching me sleep, but somehow i couldn't open my eyes , they would become heavy , too heavy to open , 

my body would act up paralyzed, it was more or so like a nightmare, the difference is i couldn't see it but felt it in my skin

my thoughts were disrupted by loud footsteps outside my door, i got up, walked towards the door and slowly opened it revealing a figure that was tumbling and tilting , 

male servants helped him to walk properly, he was drunk, and clearly didnt have high tolerance,

 for a second our eyes met through the small opening from my room door

i quickly try to shut the door open , but his hand slipped through immediately and opened it 

 the servants started to leave when he came into my room, 

he smiled with a delighted look on his face as if he was happy to see 𝒎𝒆 

and fell on my shoulder, and hugged me tight, i was more startled than ever, i was all over the place , i had butterflies in my stomach

y/n: jun-

jungkook: ahh 𝒂𝒆𝒓𝒊 i missed you

i froze up to what he called me, i let out a laugh in disbelief, i thought for a second he actually smiled at me, for me, but what was i expecting from him ,

 he hated me than any person on this planet , how could i be so foolish ,

it was a mistake to think 𝒚𝒐𝒖 liked 𝒎𝒆 for once 

there were tiny droplets falling on my back, they felt warm , he was crying,...jungkook is crying 

i clench my heart, i feel very guilty seeing him cry like this , im sorry jungkook , im so sorry to have taken something so precious from you

without knowing there were tears my eyes as well, to which he starts to pat my back

jungkook: its ok we'll be okay , your back , thats all that matters to me , 𝒘𝒆 can be happy once again

stop saying these things , my heart is wrecking inside ,

 its a torture to be in love with someone who doesn't love you back 

he starts to peck me on my cheeks, which become red in a fluster, and then slowly his lips trace over mine, and he kisses me gently, with desire, not for me ofcourse 

i let myself go , just like that , i dwell into this fake act, i put up with my made-up identity, for him

it was pleasant for my heart to have seen him smile like that, thats what i promised her , to stay by his side and make him happy again , but its not me making him happy but her 

we fall on the bed, while his slender fingers trace over my body, his eyes stare into mine , im utterly confused why he hasn't still figured out i am not her , were we that similar looking...

he then slowly removes the clothes, one by one, gently

ill give everything away to him for her sake